Ming.
Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?
Tuesday, December 25, 2007 / 9:30 PM
And about that...
And so about a 4 things that I noticed about myself today.
1.When I get TOO enthusiastic there's a chance that I might do something stupid that I really will regret.
2.When someone tells me that 'it's ok' when I make a mistake they have to sound smiley or I doubt that I'll be well convinced.
3.I can feel guilty for a REALLY LONG TIME.
4.When I doubt that someone likes me I'll talk to them and check their tone.
There.I don't know why but I actually bother to notice these types of things about myself.
While reflecting on 2007 this year I start comparing myself to the others again(OH ME GOODIES HUANG AH MING,WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!?).Yes I do stupid things.Yes I'm not so interesting.Yes I'm not the best girl on the planet.
And YES,I'm a HUMAN.
Something I notice about myself is that I worry about how I treat people.I want to be known as a nice person,not a 'you-are-lousier-than-her' girl.
Maybe they like the rest much better than I.
Maybe I talk a little too much.
Maybe they find me boring.
Maybe they just don't like me.
Darn.I think I'm emo-ing.
But I have God.
He still loves me.And loves me as much as he loves anyone,and he doesn't love anyone more or less.
He's always there for me.He's always helping me.He's always trying to comfort me when I'm sad.He always loves me.He heals the emotional and physical bruises that I have.He forgives me when I ask for it.And he listens to me and gives me answers to difficult situations.
He REALLY LOVES ME.
And I just want to thank God for some of the people he has blessed me with in my life.My dearest family who is always there to support me,Hannah,Hui Min,Sam and Rachel my wonderful church buddies who are always ready to make me smile,Joy and Jacelyn my two best chums who love me for the way I am.And for some reason I want to thank some of the guys I know.The amazing professional people who play pool with me,
the gentlemen that sends me home,and those who make me smile.It's hard to find great guys and girls like you guys these days,and also the VERY reason why I bothered to stay up late to personalize cards for you people.There are also many I want to thank as well and whom I still need to write cards to too.
I'm going to cry,seriously.
God I truly thank you for loving me so much (: