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.Gin Ming/Ren Ming,whichever is easier for you.
.29th December 1994.
.Epee fencer
.Loves God.
.Art.
And collects notebooks.
Friday, February 29, 2008 / 2:56 PM
Abnormal knee.
Hello people!
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So now it's officially declared by ah ming that my knee looks abnormal.Well I scraped it yesterday during fencing didn't I?Well today during P.E lesson and playing netball, I think I ran too fast for the ball and crashed into Pei ting (so sorry Pei ting!).And landed on the knee that was scraped,where the wound was still recovering.So now I didn't JUST make my wound worse,but I also got and extra wound and both wounds have swelled a little.And this makes my knee look super abnormal.Like I have an extra mini kneecap.EEYER.But my God can heal amen?
There are things to thank God for today after all (: I have surprisingly got the highest in class for the Literature test.But I'm sure I'm not the only one,there must be people around who got the same marks as me too.
But I know I didn't do it alone.God was there with me throughout the paper.I know I'm not that smart.
My God really does miracles.I have passed EVERY SINGLE test that has come past my hands so far,some with flying colors,some with flapping colors,and some borderline. Hey,at least a pass right?I think I will do better for my subjects this term than my last.Lots of C5s and B4s last year,let's see about this year.^^
Praise him Praise him Praise him in everything.
I want to thank God for making this week fly off so soon too.Back to catch up on my sleep.Haha,but I know I have to limit myself today since I have net later.I thank God that this week was better than the last though,with proper recesses.Yesterday was the only stressful day I had due to typing out a whole lot of home economics recipes and time managements,and I REALLY slept late for that.
I rather have injuries than work from school,so that means I can tah han pain a little.Last night half way through sleep my calf muscles suddenly felt like they were being twisted REAL hard,and for that period of time I was groaning in pain.Thank goodness I still fell back to sleep of course,and still have proper discipline for waking up on time.Thank God.
I miss spending time with him.Though this week isn't as stressful as the last,I'm still really busy and tired and haven't been doing that much of any proper devotions. So I will go high for him tomorrow and Sunday.Everyday I will try to make it for you Jesus (:
Amen.Continue to trust in the Lord!
Thursday, February 28, 2008 / 7:54 PM
*Yawn!*
Hey hey hey people!
Well well I shall make this post a quick one since I have not JUST scraped lots and lots of skin cells off my knee due to a fall during fencing,I also have a LONG LONG list of homework to do,and I promised myself to polish my blade...it's starting to rust.
And I'm a tired woman too...so I really should catch up on some sleep ehs?Weekends are coming soon,hooray!
Maria is choosing the fencers for the inter-school competition next week.I want to go.But I'm alright if I can't (:
Anyways fencing was fun today...other than the fact that I fell on the rough carpet in the space and scraped off skin cells and small shreds of skin.Feels better now,it was burning awhile ago.
My bed is always tempting me to go rest on it every single tired morning I have.And my mornings are always tired.But it's definitely not like my mom can splash one entire bucket of cold water at me...though it would really help me much in waking up and stop falling asleep in class xD But I haven't been falling asleep in class,a good thing.Maybe I should keep hungry...that'll keep me up.Don't worry,I don't get gastric pains nor starve to death so quickly.Frankly speaking to survive a day for me in school is simply on water.However if I have CCA of course food is needed ^^ And I'm not going on diet either,dumb thing to do.
Shoots it's already going to be 8.30 pm.Better get starting on work! See you guys,God bless (:
Got this cure thing from Adilia.Might wanna give it a try?
A possible remedy for Dengue fever.. good to know and try if needed.
I would like to share this interesting discovery from a classmate's son who has just recovered from dengue fever.
Apparently, his son was in the critical stage at the SJMC ICU when his pallet counts drops to 15 after 15 litres of blood transfusion. His father was so worried that he sought another friend's recommendation and his son was saved.
He confessed to me that he give his son raw juice of the papaya leaves. From a pallet count of 45 after 20 litres of blood transfusion, and after drinking the raw papaya leaf juice, his pallet count jumps instantly to 135. Even the doctors and nurses were surprised.
After the second day, he was discharged. So he asked me to pass this good news around.
Take two raw papaya leaves - cleaned, pounded and squeezed with a filter cloth. You will only get one tablespoon per leaf. So two tablespoons per serving once a day. Do not boil or cook or rinse with hot water, it will lose its strength. Use only the leafy part and not the stem or sap. It is very bitter and you have to drink it like "Wong Low Kat" - Chinese black herbal medicine. But it works!
Papaya Juice - Cure for Dengue
You may have heard this elsewhere but if not I am glad to inform you that papaya juice is a natural cure for dengue fever. As dengue fever is rampant now, I think it's good to share this with all.
A friend of mine had dengue last year. It was a very serious situation for her as her platelet count had dropped to 28,000 after three days in hospital and water has started to fill up her lungs. She had difficulty in breathing. She's only 32 years old. The doctors said there's no cure for dengue. We just have to wait for her body immune system to build up resistance against dengue and fight its own battle. She already had two blood transfusions and all of us were praying very hard as her platelet continued to drop since the first day she was admitted.
Fortunately her mother-in-law heard that papaya leave juice would help to reduce the fever and got some papaya leaves, pounded them and squeeze the juice out for her.. The next day, her platelet count started to increase, and her fever subsided. We continued to feed her with papaya leave juice and she recovered after three days!!! Amazing but it's true.
It's believed that one's body would be overheated when one is down with dengue and that also caused the patient to have fever. Papaya leave juice has a cooling effect. Thus, it helps to reduce the heatiness in one's body, making the fever go away. I found that its also good when one is having sore throat or suffering from heatiness.
Those of you staying in Subang Jaya are lucky as you can get papaya leave juice easily from the Penang Cendol stall in Giant! One cup is only RM 1.
Please spread the news about this as lately there are many dengue cases. It's great if such natural cure could help to ease the sufferings of dengue patients. Furthermore it's so easily available. Just go to market and ask the makcik who sells ulam and they usually have papaya leaves. Blend them and squeeze the juice! It's simple and miraculously effective!!
No charge for the friendly 'Dr' advise, just 1 cup of coffee O will do.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008 / 4:41 PM
Insane weirdness.
Hello people!
Picture credits to http://karumommu.deviantart.com/
So I shall be uploading the songs on my play list for this week (: Why I do so? Long story.Fine not very long story.But face it,I'm just lazy xD
Labeled as a weird person by yy too.LOL,now the numbers of people thinking that I'm weird are increasing.On the other hand I AM WEIRD.It's fun being weird at times.
WOAH!!!!It's Wednesday meaning 2 more days to the weekends.Back to rest and praising God on weekends.Also brings me closer to the march holidays.Means time to catch up on my rest,Praising God and DRAWING!That's the love I tell you.Long time since I drew a proper piece of artwork.
I'm feeling 'Instrument-ty' today.And the instrument I feel like playing is the drums.I think they're really cool by the way.It's also one of the instruments I really wanna learn how to play.I've heard how drummers drum at edge,morning service and evening service,and it really does rock.Amazing what drums can really do,when they seem to be just like a few covered cylinder-like thingys.Oh yes,my imagination is insane.I can never really drum fast despite the fact I've seen Sam,Timothy or Ezra do it.I don't know how to play any instrument properly by the way.I just have other interests other than music back then.The only form of musical talent I have now is singing xD.My voice is not THAT bad.
This is random.So I have two main jobs in the house now I notice.Cup and drink waitress cum door woman.Haha.Not very interesting jobs,but I do that for my family members most I realise.
Got to go do homework now.Speech tomorrow,as Mr Teng said.Bye people,God bless!
Tuesday, February 26, 2008 / 7:29 PM
Oh the stress.
Hello people!
Picture credits to http://m0nni.deviantart.com/
So my day has been tiresome but still enjoyable in a sense.Tiresome because of the mornings,and fencing of course.Enjoyable because met some new friends and fenced.Haha.
So this morning was amazingly cold.Raining.But I want to thank God for the rain of course.I hasn't rained for like weeks coming to almost a month?So yup,thank God still (: Though I almost froze up in class in the morning and my fingers were like...ICE.People can witness for that.
I've been trying hard to love everyone.Really.No matter how difficult,I will ask God to help me love like he did.I love because he did first.People who aren't Christians,give God a chance will you? :)You'll be amazed at what God can really do in your life.Love is an amazing thing especially when it's from God.You hear people tell you many times that God loves you,not because there's nothing else to say,because it's really true.He loves you 24/7,and has never ever stopped,even before you were born.
Amazing isn't it?So I'm trying to watch my tongue and say good stuff majority of the time.And that means Fenella Ng Seok Khim,I will attempt to make you stop emo-ing.You are doing the world's most pointless thing by emo-ing.Dumb thing to do too.Praise and worship God! The best thing to do.
I wonder if I will get chosen for the inter-school thing.SOMEHOW.I feel like going.But it's ok if I can't of course (:
Go Go Go people! Live your day for God and love him (:
Monday, February 25, 2008 / 4:14 PM
Toe cut!
Hello people!
Picture credits to http://abcde333.deviantart.com/ (:
ARRGGHHH my toe now officially has a cut due to some broken glass piece on the floor while walking home yesterday.Yes Daniel,clumsiness again.
Here was what happened.So I saw something VERY gayish on the way home (shan't specify what) and being blind out of the blue I didn't see a broken glass piece in front of me.The next thing I knew there was this amazingly loud sound and the floor seems to shatter:
*CCCRRRRAAAAANNNGGGGGG*
And I'm like 'OH SHOOT'.
Well I thought I stepped on a snail at first.But if I were to do so it would only have been a 'Piak' lol xD.This was a huge 'CCCRRRRAAAAANNNGGGGGG' that echoed much around the void deck.And snail shells NOR snails don't make me bleed or tear my skin.I guess it has to be glass then.Must be due to litter bugs.
I didn't expect anything to happen until my toe started stinging.Looking down THEN I noticed that small strands of my skin were torn and my toe was bleeding.Glass when broken does pretty amazing things don't they?Injuring you without even you knowing it.
So the wound continues to sting.And red and a little swollen.But I know it'll heal. Amen.
I just lent my entire file of my BEST OF THE BEST drawings to my aunt who wants to show them her Kindergarden children.A bit worried though.But I do hope she'll bring them back in one piece ^^
Thank God again for today!Really amazing,especially for my results of the science and Chinese test.I'm really happy for the science test because I expected really much to fail,but eventually a 19.5/25.Quite happy already,only 5.5 marks away from full marks.
I really wanted to praise God when my Chinese test results came back.47/50!!!I felt my heart almost stopped beating I tell you.I never expected my test results to be this high ever in my life.This is probably my highest so far.Thank You God! (:
Though I think really should have credited God even more in front of my friends.Tell them that my God helped me in this test,and all the praises goes to him!
And I prayed for this test.Amen!
My God can do the most amazing miracles.He loves me and I love him.I love you Jesus,and I give you praise evermore.
Saturday, February 23, 2008 / 9:16 PM
Very.
Hello people!
Well for my grandmother today I shall be eating off cup noodles then.No dinner with the youths...aww.But it's alright,not like I would die not eating with them.Next week people? (:
So I'm snacking.Haha,I really shouldn't be.But in a sense I'm pretty tired today.So the two songs sticking in my mind today while I was on the bus today were:
The heavens declare your greatness The oceans cry out to you The mountains they bow down before you So I'll join with the earth and I'll give my praise to you
The other one is...
I'll worship you my God I'll worship you my God I love you I love you Forever I will sing Forever I will be with you Be with you
Just face it,my God is so so much more than just amazing.Amen!
I have been recounting my testimonies,and I realized that God has really saved me from some life-taking experiences.They may seem like a small matter,but now come to think of it I should really thank God for rescuing me.
The biggest one I can think of was when I was around 7 years old,I went to my uncle's house for some dinner with all my relatives.So some of my relatives and I went swimming downstairs of where my uncle lived,and I wasn't being supervised much despite being so much younger then.So playing around and around with water and NOT KNOWING how on earth to swim,I eventually got pushed to the adult pool (The children's pool and adult pool are connected) where the water level was way above my head,and I was struggling.
I tried to reach out for poles to grab unto of course,but they just kept on sliding away from my fingers.Yes I struggled for really quite a while.What was really keeping me alive was that the fact that I'm using all my energy to at least surface my nose and mouth so that I can breathe AND shout for help.I bet I struggled for around 3-5 minutes or so.And that's a long time for someone drowning.And FINALLY my aunt noticed and screamed at some of my cousins to come help me out.
And I thought I was going to die.Someone carried me out of the water (argh I forgot who) and slapped me hard on the back.I remember coughing out something pink then. Eeyer.Haha.It seems small somehow,but I truly thank God for it.
There is countless thing that God has done for me.But I can't name them all.
Wonderful,so wonderful.
God I truly thank you (:
Friday, February 22, 2008 / 3:15 PM
FREE!
Hello people!
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This is the moment of insanity for me.As I've long waited,this week has officially ENDED.This means...
~I have finished 5 insane tests ~I have no more need to kope up so much time for some dance assignment ~I do not need to do anymore dancing ~I can draw.FINALLY ~No more skipping of trainings for projects! ~I can get proper rest now ~Darkness of eye backs will decrease (won't be totally gone though) ~THE WEEKENDS ARE HERE!!!! WOO~ ~It's time to spend EVEN MORE TIME with God...I miss spending more time with him ~I can go crazier in my thoughts and unleash them all.WAHAHAHAHAHA ~Catch up with my rest.REALLY
AMEN!Thank you God for letting this week pass.
Need sleep soon.*YAWN* Sleep is the love now.I need to reboot...(ah ming disk clean up!HAHA)This making sound like a robot luh xD.All well,you guys get what I mean.
So Fenella Ng keep quiet about trying to sprain your leg or hurting yourself badly so that you can skip Red Cross.Wherever or whenever you try to jump off anywhere so that you can break or dislocate your bones I will be there with a big trampoline.No no no,no hurting yourself anymore.And another word about hurting yourself I'll get you duck tape so that I can tape up your mouth then you try telling me anything emo.
Talk about injuring I have injured myself by accident quite a number of times this week.In fencing I injured my fingers on my right hand thanks to Nicole during fencing, who ask her to slam my blade with such a huge amount of force that it almost flew off my grip,in return me wasting so much energy trying to control it and resulting in injured fingers.Careful next time my girl (:
Then a paper cut on my left finger while trying to get a stack of papers,and burns and scalding from home economics class today.Burnt my fingers(AGAIN)while getting out a tray from the oven during class.The most extreme was the scalding of course,when scraping rice off the rice cooker pot with hot water suddenly the pot slipped off my hands and into the sink.And all the water flew upwards at ME.I guess that's why we Chinese have the term 'Ji Shou Ya Jiao' meaning chicken hands and duck feet.Indicating clumsiness of course,like me at times.Haha,I laugh at my own clumsiness all the time.
But my God can heal amen?
God,now I am free.Thank you,may your name be praised forever.
Thursday, February 21, 2008 / 7:00 PM
Last day of CNY
Hello world!
It's the LAST day of CNY!Sad...
Can't exactly say what happened yet,so I'll edit this post tonight.Happy last day of new year! ^^
Wednesday, February 20, 2008 / 8:10 PM
Add a VERY.
hello!
*yawn*...back to ah ming's day of Wednesday,February 20th.
Well everything went pretty smoothly today.Though I do regret the first part a little on hitting some of my friends due to irritating me when I'm already rather annoyed.Sorry my friends.Well,sometimes my arm moves without thinking.I shall try to control it from now on.But thanks for picking up the dance moves so quickly,team (: Just pray that you guys will make it for the final rehearsal tomorrow.PLEASE MAKE IT.Ok?
I really don't want to skip my CCA.But for the dance I think I have to.Who would have known that such a pointless assignment would have taken up most of my sleep,time and effort?I will praise God insanely after this Friday is over.Then I shall never need to bother about any dance ever again xD
I really thank God that my school is a Christian school.Amazingly,God spoke to me through a verse I forgot I've read up before.A verse that hung on the walls of the secondary 2 levels.
Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you?Be strong an courageous.Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged,for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
Amen.After this stressed week with so many things to do,I am once again reminded that God was there all along.He was there when I was thinking of dance moves.He was there when I was teaching the dance steps.He was there when I tried to cut the song for the dance.
I love My papa in heaven.He has really blessed me with so many things,but yet sometimes I don't see them so clearly.He has blessed me with a great family.Great cousins,siblings,and amazing parents.I love my parents on earth really a lot.And I should really love them back.Sometimes I can't love them enough I guess.I just keep growing.My dad misses my smaller size so he can cuddle and carry me.LOL,he likes to carry small children,especially his own children of course.But my sis is like 21,brother 19,and me 14.So now I can only hug my dad.He can't carry me anymore.
But I still love him.God I thank you ever so much for everything (:
I got this from Adilia...she always sends very encouraging messages (:
Once upon a time there was a bunch of tiny frogs .... who arranged a running competition. The goal was to reach the top of a very high tower. A big crowd had gathered around the tower to see the race and cheer on the contestants.... The race began.... Honestly: No one in crowd really believed that the tiny frogs would reach the top of the tower. You heard statements such as: 'Oh, WAY too difficult!!' 'They will NEVER make it to the top.' or: 'Not a chance that they will succeed. The tower is too high!' The tiny frogs began collapsing. One by one.... Except for those,who in a fresh tempo,were climbing higher and higher... The crowd continued to yell, 'It is too difficult!!! No one will make it!' More tiny frogs got tired and gave up.... But ONE continued higher and higher and higher.... This one wouldn't give up! At the end everyone else had given up climbing the tower. Except for the one tiny frog who,after a big effort, was the only one who reached the top! THEN all of the other tiny frogs naturally wanted to know how this one frog managed to do it? A contestant asked the tiny frog how he had found the strength to succeed and reach the goal? It turned out.... That the winner was DEAF!!!! The wisdom of this story is: Never listen to other people's tendencies to be negative or pessimistic.... because they take your most wonderful dreams and wishes away from you -- the ones you have in your heart! Always think of the power words have. Because everything you hear and read will affect your actions! Therefore: ALWAYS be.... POSITIVE! And above all: Be DEAF when people tell YOU that you cannot fulfill your dreams! Always think: God and I can do this!
Amen.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008 / 7:44 PM
Can Can!
Hello people!
Injured my fingers while fencing today.Who ask Nicole go waste up so much of my energy at the grip of the blade xD All well,it was a 4 to 5 and I lost,but good match anyways.
I'm tired and I have 5 tests this week.One down today,4 to go!God help me.
Got nagged at today in class due to some idiotic bug that distracted me.It was huge by the way,and while trying to get rid of it the teacher thought I wasn't paying attention and nagged a little,wasting even more time =.= I can listen,don't you worry.
I'm feeling stressed this week.And if I can get rid of THIS particular problem I will be at peace a lot more.
That I can cut the song I need in the assignment and burn it out properly in a disc.
And my brother seems to refuse to help me nor is he willing to teach me either.He just finds it irresponsible that I agreed to help to try cut music to my team without knowing how to,and that I will push the entire job to him.
That's the problem sometimes,when there's someone of higher authority you don't really dare to tell them when they misunderstood something.
Well the point is not that I wanted to push the job to him.I'm not that bad la please.It's just that NO ONE AT ALL in my team knows how to cut music not do they know someone who can do so.And I do.So I agreed to try to find help and cut the music and then burn it out.
I'm not that retarded or slacker to go push the job to someone when I know that it's rightfully my assignment.All I need is a disc.I understand that cutting music is complicated,but I just need help.Tell me what to do and I'll do it.So I'm being accused of irresponsibility and all.
But there's no point emoing of course,emoing is just another thing the enemy uses to drag us down.Though I admit to staining my pillow with several drops of tears due to being misunderstood or even understood.Yes I get emotionally hurt easily when my family members scold me.And my brother is incredibly insensitive when it comes to scolding me.
And about the music piece now I have no idea.I'm not sure if anyone is willing to teach me or if I can even get it done.I just want it done,I don't want to flame or anything.I just want the stinking music piece cut and burnt into a disc without hurting anyone and in time for the dance.
I have 5 test to study insanely for this week,the dance to choreograph,huge chunks and chunks of homework,project work research,Peer tutoring,groups to teach and handle and now this.I'm going to ask and pray God to help me for this,because I am sure he will.He never fails amen?My God is the strength of my heart,my portion forever,and always there with me...when I'm crying,sad,suffering,happy or whatever.
I am sure that he will help me.This lack of sleep,stress,skipping of dinners for homework,it will all go away.And in him I believe.Praise your name forever God,I love you,still.
Though I really am weak,Jesus also said my weakness is made perfect in His strength. Amen(:
Monday, February 18, 2008 / 8:41 PM
Oh mondays.
Hey people!
Say hello to region F 11/12 people!The AMAZING region.^^ (pity I'm not in the photo though)
I'm going to mug like insanely today.Secondary 2 is sort of stressed when you're in normal academic trying to move into express.Need more SLEEP.
9.11 p.m now.Much LONG way to go.Still I trust that God will help me (:
Thank God for helping me through school today.THANK GOODNESS I DIDN'T fall asleep.Main reason because someway somehow I woke up at 3.38 a.m for no appropriate reason.And I thought it was already 5 a.m.So the extra time (which was 2hrs by the way) was to simply rest.So that by the time I wake up and get to school I will be awake enough.Yeah I was sleepy until devotions though.My eyes were SO heavy that they shut by themselves half-way through devotions,then a teacher had to signal to my friend to shake me up.Since then I think I must have been properly awake.One shock can keep me awake until I shouldn't be,that can happen when it's Huang ah ming being shocked.
Method number two.I slap myself continuously sometimes to keep awake.No super hardly of course,when I'm too tired I don't have strength for that xD.Anyone have any lesson awake methods to teach me please contribute on the tagboard ^^
Another way is to get the teacher to ask you questions or call your name.Yes that will be shocking.Once I was made to stand with my friends for misunderstanding instructions(when I was tired of course).That really kept me awake.Very much.Yeap my God can find the most amazing ways of keeping me awake in lessons.Thank you daddy :)
All well,fencing tomorrow and I hope I can fence at least a match well.I owe Nicole a match anyways,a fanciful one.Haha fanciful meaning lots of launches,parry,parry invitations,flashy moves.That's what our coach asks us to do more often.
I think I better stop here for time so I can do homework xD.Cya people,God bless (:
Sunday, February 17, 2008 / 10:53 PM
Oh the love
Hey people!
Amazing Sunday today,it feels good,really.Maybe because of vision training? Haha.
I'm determined to let more people know more about God.I don't want to let them leave this earth without knowing about our savior.
Well,so it was vision training today,reaching out to some schools.Tell the world that Jesus lives!(Does C.W actions)God with you by my side I believe you can!There's nothing my God cannot accomplish.
Drawing is the love.So is Jesus.
God bless!
Saturday, February 16, 2008 / 11:19 PM
All part of randomness
hello people!
This is random but STILL I want to say it.I love you tonnes,Jesus,God.
I'm in a lovey mood now somehow.Must be edge service today.Experience the love of God man.And this is even more random.I want a hug xD
That's funny,I haven't been in such a funny mood for a LONG time (: But it's time for me to sleep,I shall share the love tomorrow (:
Goodnight world.
Gives you praise evermore.
Hello people!
Lunch today,CANDY.Sorry people I'm appetite swinging again.
My face is growing chubbier.That's obvious to me ^^.I mind a little since all the chubbiness there should go to my arms,not my face.But all well,they're alright there too (:
So,I didn't post yesterday due to taking time on Fridays to get some extra sleep.I've noticed that I'm starting to look more and more like a panda from the lack of proper sleep I have from school.Explains why I've been dozing off in class as well.Sometimes I'm so tired that I forget that I have school xD.Ah Ming weirdness and gong-ness I guess.
But I want to thank God A TONNE for yesterday though,seriously.Without him I don't know what to do.
So I first of all,I managed to skip P.E lesson due to war memorial service for the civilians.There isn't much to do there actually,just watching the people give rings of flowers and moments of silence for them.But I do feel sad for the people who died during the Japanese occupation.Very innocent them got killed for no reason.Though it was nothing much there,frankly speaking,I do thank God for the experience.
I thank God EVEN MORE for the trip there.The trip there is SUPER amazing I tell you, the architecture of buildings I saw on the way there is BRILLIANT.Gives me a lot of ideas and gets the clogs in my brain working much.Gives me a greater reason to get a camera.
Then after when I returned to school my friends were telling me how they got so terribly scolded since many of the groups aren't prepared for the dance.Thank God I wasn't there.
So later on CHAPEL was POWER!I saw people jumping.People singing.And I finally heard the song by Nicole Nordeman,Why.I've been wanting to hear this song for quite awhile, a song about Christ.A beautiful and yet sad a song.
We rode into town the other day, just me and my Daddy. He said I’d finally reached that age, and I could ride next to him on a horse that of course was not quite as wide We heard a crowd of people shouting and so we stopped to find out why There was that man that my dad said he loved, but today there was fear in his eyes
So I said Daddy why are they screaming? Why are the faces of some of them beaming? Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe? I bet that crown hurts him more than he shows Daddy please can’t you do something? He looks as though he’s gonna cry You said he is stronger than all of those guys- Daddy please tell me why, why does everyone want him to die?
Later that day the sky grew cloudy and daddy said I should go inside Some how he knew things would get stormy, boy was he right But I could not keep from wondering if there was something he had to hide So after he left I had to find out, I was not afraid of getting lost So I followed the crowds to a hill where I knew men had been killed And I heard a voice come from a cross:
And it said : Father why are they screaming? Why are the faces of some of them beaming? Why are they casting their lots for my robes? This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows. Father please can’t you do something? I know that you must hear my cry. I thought I could handle a cross of this size, Father remind me why, why does everyone want me to die? When will I understand why?
My precious Son, I hear them screaming. I’m watching the face of the enemy beaming. but soon I will clothe you in robes of my own. Jesus this hurts me much more than you know, but this dark hour I must do nothing. Though I’ve heard your unbearable cry — the power in your blood destroys all the lies, soon you’ll see past their unmerciful eyes. Look there below see the child trembling by her father’s side. Now I can tell you why, she is why you must die.
I felt so overcome with love after this song.Then the next song that came to my mind was this:
The universe is at your feet Gives you praise,evermore. The stars light the sky for you. And always, God be praised.
Amen.God I thank you (:
Thursday, February 14, 2008 / 4:58 PM
Valentines day!
Hello people!
Picture credits to http://d-bird.deviantart.com/ (:
Happy Valentines day people!Remember,spend it well with the ones you love.Treasure them while you can.
So in school today I received lots and lots of candy and sweet stuff from my friends.I don't think I've ever received this much candy in a day in a LONG LONG time :)
I was able to stay awake in school today,Thank God.What really made me awake was a surprise during this morning's devotion.Love was in the air.No,it really WAS in the air.The Christian fellowship girls wanted to show how much they loved us,and then out of ABSOLUTELY NOWHERE mini packet marshmallows started flying.I have no idea how the girls got so many marshmallows either.They were everywhere this morning,and came flying from every direction,the top,front.
Thanks for the love people,so in return for my class I decided to write them notes and make for them flowers.
No fencing today too,the session was canceled.Awww.But it's perfectly alright,I can survive without fencing.
Though it's Valentines day,I still have some worries for tomorrow in my heart for my team's dance,and my two other girls who have absolutely no idea what the dance is about I will need to kop time to teach them.After all I can't dance tomorrow,I have the war memorial thing to attend.
Great,now I feel like hugging somebody.Anyone in for a hug? ^^
All well,let me tell you about something interesting I saw today.
Right,there was this lady who was dressed pretty finely,quite pretty too,and sad to say she was smoking.Next to the dustbin and her back facing me.I felt a little sorry for her life somehow,and decided that I will include her in my prayers too.
Then while walking up the overhead bridge not far from her COINCIDENTALLY a bus went by that had a huge picture of a cigarette on in,that does not encourage nor promotes smoking.Oh my word I almost laughed luh.Small world ain't it?
I've been dying to take a photo of the trees near the back of Bukit Timah Plaza,before they may be gone someday.They slant in the most beautiful manner,seriously.The colors on them look awesome too.Any photographer free lately?Go to the back exit cum entrance and take a nice shot of the amazing slanted trees there.An absolute waste if not admired by.
Yes,God,it's all yours too (:
Wednesday, February 13, 2008 / 3:29 PM
An attempt.
Hello people!
Picture credits to http://desertheartsjoshua.deviantart.com/
I have decided to start drawing again after a busy start from the year.The good thing is,I haven't finished majority of my series yet,so I still have many things to draw.
However though,I decided to give my skills a bit of practice by drawing something else out of the box.Yes a girl wearing a formal dress.Not just any dress with frills.This one has a few complications.After all it's been awhile since I drew some formal dresses.Maybe because I'm not much of a formal dresser myself.At least quite a handful of people liked the dress when I showed it to them.Now for the background.It's completing,the picture (:
So last night like every night recently,I asked God to bless the day ahead and most importantly of course,live for him and keep me awake.
Well well well,I managed to stay awake today,thank God.And he helped me through the Home Economics common test too.
But one thing I would truly want to thank him for is that he let me get a form to go to the War memorial site!Means skipping the whole of PE lesson,and more time to rehearse the dance!And more knowledge about war then of course.And only a few students get this form.And I was one of them.
God is just so real to me now.Prayer works amen? GOD I PRAISE AND LOVE YOU!There just isn't anything that my God cannot accomplish.
Seriously,I'm going to start living for him.Hopefully,my friends whom I try to speak about Jesus to will stop telling me that Christianity is boring and all these nonsensical excuses,and rejecting my invitations.
The only 2 worries I have when I ask my friends out is when their parents refuse or when they think that church is boring and stuff.
People,it's not about church being boring or not.It's about God.About the one whom created you,loves you.
You know,there's another thing I noticed.Sometimes,when we tell others,'JESUS LOVES YOU!',we seem to be the ones who get what Jesus loves you means,while the others don't.
Sad to say it,when I hear devotions that different people speak of in the morning at my school,I'm rather excited about it,while I see my other friends doze off.Somehow,that sight is pretty sad to me since I'm a more devoted Christian.Some of them don't even know why they are Christians.It hurts me.They hear Jesus loves them almost everywhere they go,but I don't think they understand the absolute true meaning of JESUS LOVES YOU.Yes they already know of the entire story of Jesus's painful death in love for us,but they aren't moved by it.It's just another sad story to them.JESUS LOVES YOU is just another 3 words to them.
But JESUS LOVES YOU isn't JUST 3 words.Jesus's death on the cross isn't JUST another sad story.
Jesus's love for you is seriously huge.You seriously can't love as much as Jesus loves you.Know someone you really really love,so much that you can't love them any more?Yes Jesus's love is greater than that.You're his child,his creation.HE TRULY TRULY LOVES YOU A LOT.
Come to the Father.He is willing to forgive you.Just accept him,it's all he's asking for.The father loves you,his child.
'I'm always there,from the beginning till the end,I'm always near you and have always loved you.Can you hear me my child,Can you hear me?'
Tuesday, February 12, 2008 / 7:05 PM
cookies.Yay.
Ello people!
Back from fencing!Had a good time today,being introduced to my new juniors.Nice people they are ^^
So,I look and don't look forward to tomorrow.Look because of half-day.Don't look because I have to continue teaching the dance moves to my team members.Some funny graded assignment for P.E. Know why I don't like what we are supposed to do in P.E now?I'm not that much of a good dancer I tell you,but still,I'm the main choreographer for the entire dance my group is performing.But I'm leaving my life into God's hands,so I shouldn't worry too much for the dance.I'm sure it will go well,with God's help.Amen (:
I have officially made someone's day today!I feel so nice.But making her day isn't enough.I must bring her closer to God.I think I might start to have a lot of 'ones' now to pray for.I'll keep a few friends in prayer for time first.
Nothing much to post about today actually,just that I want to thank God once again for helping me survive through the almost unsurvivable day.I was SO tired as a matter in fact,that I left my head on the table for a few seconds and the teacher was like 'Who's that girl ah?' and this shock got my head off the table immediately.Then this shock,somehow was able to keep me alive for the entire day...through fencing and everything.Thank you God,I would have missed a handful of great lessons if I was asleep.
I feel awesome handing my life to God.I'm sure my Daddy in heaven is going to take care of everything (:Thank you God,may you bless the days ahead.We praise your glorious name (:
Monday, February 11, 2008 / 7:13 PM
It's all yours
Hey people!
'Yours' by Steven Curtis Chapman.Officially my favorite song currently.HOORAY FOR GOD!My God is an awesome God ^^
Well,I promised that I'd blog more about my CNY third day.Now for WHY it was the most girlish CNY in my life so far.
Frankly speaking,not a lot of people have seen me in skirts before.Very little actually.Some can't even imagine me in them seeing how rarely I wear skirts.Bet my most girlish attire before CNY this year was my school uniform.I only own two dresses now,one my school uniform and one this black dress that makes my body look a lot more out of figure and short.I doubt I'm ever going to wear it unless I do something to alter it maybe.
So yes for the past three days of CNY I have been amazingly wearing skirts.And cooking.That concludes it.I haven't worn skirts for more than 5 months.
All well.I still wanna thank God for helping me make it through today.Though it was almost impossible.
No matter how tired I am and how fast I'm going to fall asleep soon in class,God will help me.I prayed to him before I actually dozed off,asking him to take away tiredness from me.He'll help me somehow.So despite a few close dozing offs in classes today I managed to survive through a day of lessons today.I'm determined to sleep earlier tonight,so I can be more energized tomorrow to survive.Through project work especially,it's my most dreaded lesson of the week,along with P.E lessons since I don't really like what we do in there.Fencing is more like it,not P.E.
Come to think of it there's fencing tomorrow.Better remember to bring my attire for it tomorrow,we Epee users are free-fencing tomorrow.
The Epee team is the love I tell you.The best there is ^^
Goodnight people,God bless!
Sunday, February 10, 2008 / 10:56 PM
More sleep.
You Are Fairly Normal
You scored 70% normal on this quiz
Like most people you are normal in some ways... But you aren't a completely normal person. You're a little weird too!
Why You Are Normal:
You would rather be pale than tan
You think glasses can make someone more attractive
You think fishnet stockings are trashy
You prefer fiction to non fiction
You rather be screwed over than screw someone else over
Why You Aren't Normal:
If given the choice, you would choose to have more time over more money
You would rather be a movie star than an astronaut
You don't keep up with your horoscope
When you're in a car, you prefer to be the passenger
Itchy handed ah ming has decided to post.So yup I'm normal and I'm not normal.Everyone's like that actually.
Yesterday it's concluded that this has been my most girlish Chinese new year yet.I'm actually helping out in the kitchen yesterday tasting all the stuff,frying things,chopping and pounding chili,as well as chopping garlic,onions and squeezing lemon.A whole lot more.The even more girlish thing about it was,I did that all in a skirt.
But no make-up.Of course not,who would wear make-up to do cooking.That's plain funny la.
Then today there was service,however after today's service and class we were at Fabian's housewarming,instead of lazing around at church waiting for evening service.It was fun.Thanks (:
Well I'm feeling super duper and duperly tired now,like the stress isn't going to stop,ever.Something tells me I need my sleep.In God I find peace amen?I'm going to put my life into God's hands (: However,for time I need sleep.Goodnight world,talk again tomorrow.God loves ya.
Saturday, February 9, 2008 / 12:12 AM
Chu er.
Hello people!
CNY day two!And without doubt these two days have been the days where I have dressed the most girlishly after a LONG time.I bet most people will be shocked by what I'm wearing.Especially Joy Chua of course,it's the first time I'm wearing a skirt without her forcing me to.Haha.
But on behaving wise,I'm the usual ah ming.From now on people,I think I should be matching almost every single skirt I'm wearing with either tights or shorts underneath. That's what I did for the past two days,I'll feel exposed if I don't do so.I hate to remember the fact that I have to keep on remembering and minding the way I should be sitting.Don't worry,obviously I won't sit like I'm trying to do a split.What I'm saying is that I don't want to have to worry too much.
All well,it's red packets,food,visiting families,cam-whoring and mahjiong.Yup,mahjiong is the festive game in my family.I know how to play it too ^^.It sort of requires brains and luck.Luck for the tiles you're getting,and brains for what you are going to kop from you fellow opponents and what to keep and discard.Winning three rounds overall,shows that my skills have improved.Yay.
Right,enough about gambling.Not something to be addicted to,just for fun once in awhile.
Movies of CNY this year includes all the crazy Chinese shows on television,like they always show every year,but this year my dad got 'Sweeney Todd'.It's recently released, and VERY GORY.Gothic literature like my brother said,with main actor Johnny Depp!One of my all time favorite actors (: A good show,though very gross with lots of blood. Horror genre I guess.But it's really good.It's the moment where all of you will learn to treasure your necks.
Actually I shouldn't be watching it.It's rated M18.I can take it though,the goriness,especially along with my other family members.I'm armed with a pillow at all times to cover myself if needed.
All well,it's not the type of horror shows that'd make me have nightmares.The blood is too fake anyway,looks more like watermelon juice.Yeah I can think of all types of things at times ^^ However now due to the show,which also happens to be a musical,I'm starting to sing one of the songs that Anthony Hope the sailor in the movie sang to his love Johanna. I feel you Johanna, I'll steal you Johanna.
Why am I singing it in the first place xD.
For the last part of today,my brother and I decided to cam-whore along with my cousins until my mom made us stop.The flashes were probably annoying her.I'll upload the pictures someday (:
Happy CNY people! Remember to thank God for all that he has blessed you with.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008 / 3:48 PM
CNY approaches....
You are Milk Chocolate
A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds. You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life. Also nostalgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.
Decided to take this quiz because I was thinking of chocolate,and I'm bored.Head above the clouds indeed.Remember to pull me down to Earth if I reach the end of the atmosphere people xD But yes I really do dream a lot.
Hey people!
Happy Chinese New year!This time of fun for us Chinese has officially arrived.At least it will soon ^^
I just ate something super fattening and I still weigh 42 kg.I expected 46kg.lol.
Well anyways people,it was the finals for the design competition today.Despite the fact that quite a number liked my design,I didn't win anything.It's alright though,I'm not crying over not winning.Though I would probably have produced an even better piece of work if I got the instructions clearer.Praise and Thank God still that I made it through the semi-finals and into the finals :) That's enough for me ^^ Thank you God.
Mr Teng is so nice la.He was like 'Gin Ming,your design is nice!They have no taste.' So nice of him to say so.Thanks to the many words of encouragement too,2n6.I love you guys (: Thank you Quraisha and Dawn for voting as well ^^
Went back to phpps after CNY celebrations.Apparently St Margaret's people reached early...WAY TOO EARLY.So Jessica and I were probably the most bored people walking around and around the school for the longest time.Saw everyone I'm supposed to see,Jacelyn,Yong Quan,yy,zx,Carmen,Niki,yijie,and a whole lot more.However,other than just saying many hellos to friends and experiencing the fun of CNY,I became very observant,somehow.Yes,there's more to observe than the fact that yy has pink braces.
I saw the world that I needed to reach out to suddenly.Probably due to the fact that I saw some students younger than me with pierced chins,smoking,cursing,scolding vulgarities,and bullying the other students.One almost hit me with a smoked cigarette while trying to throw it away.I saw all these gangster teens,all younger than me,being scolded and yelled by petrol station employees,and maybe the employer too,for throwing smoked cigarettes around the petrol station.Not a smart idea either,throwing smoked cigarettes around petrol stations,it may start a fire.
What's happening to this world?Pray for the world in your quiet time with God,that they get salvation someday.That love will once again be restored to their hearts,that innocent child back into them.God,I trust that you can do it,you are the amazing God.
Happy CNY people!Forget all your diets for time and enjoy yourself ^^
Tuesday, February 5, 2008 / 10:16 PM
Think Think Think.
Hey people!
Picture credits to http://gnahz.deviantart.com/ THINK.
CNY rehearsal today.Hope it'll go well tomorrow people (:
Well today I decided to talk about being tactful and tactless,after one almost heart stopping experience today.
I shan't say that I'm tactful all the time either.There obviously are times where I may go tactless,and forget what I'm saying.Though I am sure that with God's help I am able to be a lot more tactful.Amen.Our weakness is made perfect in His strength amen?
We aren't perfect people,don't worry so much all the time,though do try your best to be sensitive to other people's feelings.
Back to today.So yes there was a huge fight in my team for project work,seeing that there's a personality clash between two people in my group.And they got me involved seeing that I'm part of the team.Yes forgetting that my heart is still recovering from being quite weak.But I trust God to help me through is situation.
The key here people,is to love one another.No matter how difficult it may be,love your brothers and sisters.No excuses at all for that.God is love,and you cannot say that you love God if you do not love your brothers and sisters.
Even if there isn't anything about them to love about to you,you still love them.Them so called *not* having anything to love about is not an excuse.Love as God has loved you.Remember,you didn't deserve this love.But God loved you SO SO MUCH.Maybe you people don't see what this SO SO MUCH is about.Maybe you don't even know what love is.
Here's the thing.I know you people can probably imagine what a person that really truly doesn't deserve love is like.Someone who was probably the last person that a normal human mind you even think of loving.Yes God loves them too.No matter how disgusting or annoying they may seem to you,God loves them really a lot.He'd even die for them.God's unconditional love is certainly amazing isn't it?
Take another example.Let's just say that for instance you aren't someone who should be liked.How everyone in the world seems to really just wish you would go away.But then there's this man.His name is Jesus.He hangs out with you,and everyone as well all the time.He smiles at you and talks to you.He teaches you how to love.And he clearly shows that he loves you ever so much too.
Then you're going to die.Painfully,eternally,in fire and indescribable pain.This pain you are going to go through forever and ever.The horror in you heart that you had to bear.However,Jesus steps in.He absolutely refuses this pain to happen to you,because he really does love you very and ever so much.And to prevent you to go through this torture,he took your place on the cross and paid the price for you to be free.He took away all the reasons that people had to dislike you.So much sin was on him when he was dying so painfully on the cross that his father turned his face away from him,he was bearing all the sin the world had including yours.
Then you just stared at him dying in such horrible pain.This man.He had never done anything wrong from his first breath to his last.This man who loves you when no one else did.This man who loves you when you don't deserve it,not even a tiny bit of it at all.This man who doesn't deserve to die.But he died.We were the reason why he died.We were the reason he went through so much torture and pain.And we were undeserving.We were supposed to be the ones to die.And Jesus had a choice to die or not to die.He choosed us,to die for our sins.
He died.The only man ever who loves you this much.
On the third day after his death though,a miracle happens.He isn't in his tomb anymore.He's 100% alive.He comes up to you and gave you love,and there you are in his arms,loving him back.And he's alive till this very day.And he still loves you.
And God is love.So like God says,love your neighbor as you love yourself.And love them because God loves them too.We must love the others,as we love God,and God is love.So we love love,and so we love!Love's the one reason the world survives.
Thank you once again God,for loving me and setting me free.I love you too God.
Monday, February 4, 2008 / 1:12 PM
Sorry 2n6, I'm really sorry.
Hello people!
Picture credits to http://lexidh.deviantart.com/.This is truly such an adorable picture.
So people if you all are wondering why I didn't make it to school today it's because my heart and throat have decidedly wanted to NOT feel well.Seems like my heart pains yesterday got worse,and my throat didn't want to respond nicely to my singing yesterday.Heart pains and sore throat.What a combination.
But I really want to go to school today,because I have the design a dress contest to train for.A trainer is going to come and train us to build up our confidence on the big day(Haha,like as if I don't have enough).But still I want to go and see how it would be like.BUT I CAN'T.My body wouldn't allow me.*sobs* I'm going to visit the doctor later.
But Claudia has to go.She's the model for my dress for nuts,and I don't know what the teacher will say if neither one of us are present for the training.Which is why I'm going to call Claudia after school later.I don't want my dress to be disqualified,I put in so much effort into it.I don't know how to answer my teacher really,after all the stress I've been through recently.My brother suggests that I stay at home and rest.Working really hard people,don't come nagging at me unless you want me to shut down for good.
God,please help me through these difficult times.For in Psalms 30 you said that you will bring us out from the grave.Amen.
You caused it.You don't know it.
Sunday, February 3, 2008 / 11:02 PM
Owch.
Hello people!
Sad to say ah ming isn't feeling very good today.Since last week,evening service I will experience some very sharp pains in my heart.Actually the pain isn't very physical,nor is it very emotional either.More of a mix.I need to surrender it to God,and find out what it's all about.Thank you God and I praise you still,forever (:
In the bus with Caleb and my brother we were talking about quite a number of things,including some of the ministries in church.I'm still wondering what I should join.Caleb suggests sound ministry.He suggests it probably because it's his ministry,and of course it should be fun.I wouldn't mind sound ministry really,though there are a few options.I wouldn't mind joining the video or children's ministry either.If I were to join worship ministry I would need to train my voice a little.It's a high low female's voice.Other words meaning one of the higher voices for a girl's low voice.I have a rather low voice for a girl. ^^
But you got to admit,sound and video ministry really does look fun.Either lots and lots of buttons,wires or cameras.Suggestions anyone? Worship,sound,children,nursery,video.I'll be making my decision by the month of June this year (:
Haha,I have this to say,sometimes I wonder about different reactions that guys give girls.I can never understand the different weird ways guys try to woo girls.How does ignoring a girl make her like you for nuts?Talking to her in a gruff tone wouldn't work either.And obviously neither would acting 'Tao' or not bothered.And sadly,these are the ways I see most guys always use.Haha...I decide to say this random thing because this was what I noticed by one of the actions I saw a guy trying to do to a girl today.Good luck dude,it's not going to be easy.
Whenever I'm 100% sure that my friends like someone,I can somehow know how their heart is beating.When the person they have a crush on nears,I feel that their heart will suddenly sink and then fly up like a rocket.And then starts pumping slightly faster than usual.It always happens,I don't know why.
All well,I'm into drawing Christ-related pictures now a days.Probably based on some of the amazing and wonderful visions he gave me.There was one this morning during service.
I saw,in the dark corner of the streets back in the old times in all the foreign TV shows you see,all the pebbly streets,old wine bars and working areas.I saw that there was this slave child.I felt her suffering in chains.I knew the the beatings she received in slavery,every single second of the painful moments she went through while being a slave.Her clothes were dirty,torn,tattered,and stained with blood.Some parts of her skin were torn due to the beatings she received,and she was bleeding.
There was this finely dressed man that came in a horse drawn carriage then.He saw this girl,and came out of the carriage.The man went up to the guard who is held responsible for this poor girl's torture,and demanded that she should be released.The man took off the girl's chains with his own hands,dabbed her wounds gently with his handkerchief, removed his jacket and placed it on the girl.He dressed her with some new clothes,and took her to the carriage,and brought her to a lovely old cottage by the forest of different colors,where she would be taken well care of by a nice family.Then man then left.The last I saw of him was his smile,and it was beautiful.
Amen.I thank you Lord,for setting me free.
Saturday, February 2, 2008 / 10:27 PM
First.
You Are a Total Brainiac
You're amazingly brilliant. Some would even say genius. You're curious, thoughtful, analytical, and confident.
You take on difficult subjects because you want to... not because you have to. No field of knowledge is too complicated or intimidating for you.
You've got the brains to do anything you want. It's possible you end up doing everything you want.
Oh?I thought this quiz result would turn me out into a complete dumb dumb(Haha,night at the museum).But looks like according to it I'm a brainiac.Shows that blogthings quizzes almost always never turn out accurate xD
Hello people!
Going to upload songs again my next post.Haha.I think when I get a new skin soon I shall put it somewhere on my blog where I can play it when I want to.I don't exactly like to visit a blog and then automatically they play their own song.That's annoying when you're trying to enjoy a song and then one you don't want to listen to just pops up.
Today was the games with Fabian's net at west coast!Haha,super fun luh.'Spiderboo' and captain's ball.'Spiderboo' is just another name for Taboo,just that we're playing it with the spiderweb pyramid.Haha,and guess who's in my team.Rachel Dass!Yeah both of us are Taboo professionals due to much 'training' at Youth Camp.So yup at this station we won ^^
However then we had captain's ball,and my team lost xD.But still it was a good game,with a close score of 13 to 15.It's been long since I've been this enthusiastic.Haven't played captain's ball in ages.Thanks people from Fabian's net and Fabian of course,for organizing this activity.Makes me feel so high again.
Edge later.Excellent session of worship,they did a song which I missed a lot too.
Shout out to God with a voice of triumph! Shout out to God with a voice of praise! We lift your name up! We life your name up!
This song makes me feel happier after a stressful week.
And I really thank God for making me feel better and comforting me,because somehow,I feel as if I've been taken more for granted this week.Yes,people shouting at my face, either by accident or on purpose,just borrowing cash from me often like I'm supposedly supposed to be nice all the time(and sadly by all means not looking like they're even feeling bad about it,though they still return it)and hurting my feelings.Without even knowing it.
No I'm not emoing.I just don't like people to continuously tell me what to do.Yeap, forcing me to go online is one thing (Don't worry Daniel it's no you who did this one) when I really super beat.Nah,not the conversation I had with Daniel and David,that I was really able to still talk for a short moment about more meaningful stuff.The one with Rachel Tan however,was really FORCE.Yes I'm weak to whines.I'm weak to it because I don't like to eventually whacking people to keep them quiet from whining.If I can't take annoying whines for too long,I will result to two options,either give to it or say a super loud 'NO' and shut my ears.I try not to say no though,because it isn't nice and will obviously,result in more whines.
Remember too people,I'm not a free-of-charge drawing suppling machine.Yes so what if I can draw well?Please remember I get tired too people,and making me draw so much is really just asking for a low-quality piece of work.People draw good pictures with freedom included.Easy to tell if I want to draw.I'll say yes on the spot or after at most 8 seconds.If I don't really feel like it,I'll hesitate.
But God is always here to help me gain my strength and comfort me.He helps me get away from the world,help me forgive them for forgetting about me and being selfish.And we're all at peace!Still I will still pray that I will make good decisions in life. Amen.My God is an awesome God!