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You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?
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.Gin Ming/Ren Ming,whichever is easier for you.
.29th December 1994.
.Epee fencer
.Loves God.
.Art.
And collects notebooks.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009 / 9:21 PM
It is finished.
Hello world!
Counting down from yesterday,its exactly 3 months to my birthday!Haha,I think I got the excitement too early.And today,its 2 months and 29/30 days to my birthday.
The week has been tiring,but yet,I do feel as if God's with me most of the time now.Before this week,I've been neglecting him,but I feel as if hes more into my life now.
Its truly that when I come closer to him that he seems even more magnificent,and even more amazing.That he teaches me so much things through life,through pains and trials,and he helps me see and too enjoy the light at every end of the tunnel.
After all,where do you find someone who loves you enough to have the heart to put you through the most painful situations that helps you become someone tougher and stronger?
Charis Wong described it to the net once that its like crafting a diamond.A diamond starts out NOT looking like a diamond,but like a rock.But if someone saw it differently,more than just a mere rock,he'd take it up and carve it into something extraordinary,into a beautiful diamond.The diamond would have to go through series and long processes of cutting and carving,before it becomes something truly beautiful.
Its like God seeing us more than rocks,more than what we think are,and picking us up and wanting to make us beautiful and shine like a diamond.He does put us through painful situations,the chiseling and carving,but because that's the only way we are ever going to shine.
And the best part,he's willing to be there with us through the pain.Realize that God's the one doing the cutting and carving...he didn't pass us to the hands of another to carve.He's the perfect maker,and he would be there to watch and ensure that we become beautiful.
But of course,we must trust him to.Taking it out of diamond contexts,if we don't trust God that he would bring us through,we'll never make it.
But nonetheless,hes wonderful.
And I know I'm weak I know I'm unworthy To call upon Your name But because of grace Because of Your mercy I stand here unashamed
Thank you Jesus.
God bless!
Tuesday, September 29, 2009 / 7:55 PM
You remain.
Defender of this heart You loved me from the start You never change
Through the highs and lows As seasons come and go You never fail
Day after day Your love will remain Faithful and true You are good
[Chorus:] You are God with us You're victorious You are strong and mighty to save For Your word stands true There is none like You And when all else fades You remain
When troubles come my way You guide and You sustain Lead me, I pray
Forever You will be The great eternal King Now and always
Day after day Your love will remain Faithful and true You are good, you are good
When all else fades You remain
Cause' day after day You never change Day after day You are the same Day after day You remain
Remain-Starfield
With the rest of my life,I want to use it to worship you,Jesus.
Happy Birthday Nicolette Teo! (:
God bless. I wanna be a hero.
Monday, September 28, 2009 / 5:05 PM
Let the mugging begin.
Sunday, September 27, 2009 / 10:03 PM
Too fast.
No no no,the weekends are ending.
Thats too fast.WAYYYYY too fast.
Oh well,the next would come fast too,heh.
But my weekend was fulfilling,I enjoyed myself as much as ever,and once again,filled.Thank you Jesus.
God bless!
Thursday, September 24, 2009 / 9:23 PM
Ming!
Hello world!
At last,tomorrow will be Friday and it would finally be coming to the end of the week.Thank you Jesus.
Next week would the torture of exams start,starting with the English and Social Studies paper on Tuesday.Well,we'll get it over and done with (:
In my life,there are many twists and complications,like everyone.We all have our secret wants and desires,we have thoughts that have been mixed and complicated,as well as mixed and confused emotions.(Oh golly.Don't you wonder why humans are so irritating to have all these nonsense in their lives?)
I guess things happen and we're all just humans.Yes,strange as it may seem I can be the most vicious of creatures at times as well as having a heart that loves.Sometimes,my whole inner being can change into a monster with razor sharp teeth and claws,has fire in the stomach,with fire in the pupils and ice dancing in the pupil's middle.And yes,its terrible when I get really angry and into emotion.
At the same time,there are also times where love pours non stop from my heart,waiting to give that love away to people and not a single horrid thought can come into my being.
I look at that fact and see how human I am.How messy,and how strange.
But that's life,and that's why we go through it.We're messy,so that we can learn to clean it up.We are confused,so that we learn to clear it.We feel the emotion and we feel the pinch,so that we get stronger.
Life is imperfect,but its in its imperfectness that we become more perfect.Like beauty in the broken.
Thank you Jesus.
God bless!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009 / 7:49 PM
So close.
After Gabriel sang this song at the Levite's performance,I got hooked on.Heh.
Enchanted was a nice movie.
School was tiring today,I almost fell asleep during POA and Emath lesson,and I've coughed enough to make my voice croak.Or at least,husky like a guy.Haha.
But thank God anyway(:
God bless!
Monday, September 21, 2009 / 4:34 PM
What to change?
Hello world!
Well well,no school today.Happy Hari Raya!
I've been reflecting,and I decided I have things I badly need to change,and decide to change by the end of this month of September.
-My talking speed. -To think more before I speak. -Stop laughing for courtesy's sake. -Be nicer. -Stop overly repeating myself.
By the end of September.I'll be taking note.
I'm still coughing my throat and voice away,so I really pray I'll get a lot better before the exams.
God bless!
Sunday, September 20, 2009 / 10:43 PM
Tomboy?
I have decided to cut down on my girlish side(even though its already ALMOST non existent),and do more boyish things sometimes.
.Don't scream if I can still hold it. .Watch Soccer(and likely support Manchester Untied) .Have a higher pain tolerance. .Play Touch Rugby someday again. .And after I play touch rugby,I'll try the real rugby,with body contact. .When I graduate I will chop my hair. .Do more athletics. .Have a bold streak to try new(and logical) things. .An even greater control over my emotions. *.Most importantly,TALK SLOWER.
Most of the other characteristics that aren't stated is likely that I already have or rather go without.
I'm going to be less girly.Heh.
Anyway,the weekend was lovely,like any other weekend was.No school tomorrow,something else to thank God for :D
God bless!
Friday, September 18, 2009 / 8:48 PM
Not today.
I miss training so bad.
Hello world!
This morning my mom insisted that I go back to school,although my fever was still there.And eventually,I got sent back home anyway.Heh.
And worst of all,I didn't make it for net rally.I would have loved to go there,hang out with my dearest friends,listen to the word and see the excitement of people getting saved,but I can't.Not for this net rally I can't.
So for the whole of today after being sent back from school,I slept from 10+ am to about 5.30pm.I feel like a pig xD Then when I woke up,I had dinner(which I didn't finish)and watched Moulin Rouge.
Man.I barely ate anything since yesterday.The whole of yesterday I ate one slice of wholewheat bread and a bun,and drank lots of water.Today,another slice of wholewheat bread and 3/4 a bowl of noodles.At least there's the improvement,haha.
Thanks to some you for your concern(:
Nonetheless,I can't wait for tomorrow!:D
God bless(:
Thursday, September 17, 2009 / 3:59 PM
Sick.
Hello world!
I'm down with fever today.It was really random,I didn't really show much signs of falling sick.
The temperature was from 38.9 to 37.1 and to 39.1.Man.
I hope I can still make it to school tomorrow,I have my art coursework to pass up.But in all things,praise the Lord (:
God bless!
Monday, September 14, 2009 / 7:23 PM
So how've you been?
Hello world!
I shan't be on msn for a bit since my hard disk has problems,and thus,the windows live messenger wouldn't be working for a bit as well.I'll get it fixed,soon (:
I like thinking about the happy and exciting things coming up later on in the days to come,such as weddings,events like care and share and Christmas,so on and so forth.And Uncle Boyle has asked me to MC for the Kindergarden graduation ceremony.
I was rather enthusiastic about being an MC,for kids.I just hope I won't have a nervous break down and accidentally speak too fast.Heh.The graduation ceremony would be on the 11th of November.
I can't wait for both Eric Loh & Angeline,Alvin & Hui Chean's wedding!Of which both I'll be attending with the sound crew.I think I'll officially be the only girl in the sound crew soon for region 11/12,after Hui Chean marries out.Sisters,join the sound crew!Haha.
After the end of year exams,the remainder of 2009 is going to be extremely exciting.
I thank God for that :D
God bless!
Sunday, September 13, 2009 / 9:49 PM
The feeling of love.
Hello world!
I SHOULD be rushing to finish my homework,but things like art coursework,without my stupid printer working,can't be finished.
I'm in a happy,missing mood today.
Today,I knew I was cared for,I felt almost the full blast of love.Love,not as in BGR,but well,friendships,or whatever else.
I went to collect my blade today from being tightened due to a lose guard.I made it quick since I didn't want to disrupt the fencing lesson going on,so I took the blade and went off immediately.And my friend actually came out from the club,all the way to the bus stop to find me for a little chat.How nice isn't it?
And back to church.I had a fruitful NLT lesson doing door to door blessing.I did it with none other than my very much loved Hannah!We did get some rejects,but thats alright.
And I went home without having dinner with the youths because I decided that I'd want to go home and prepare myself for school tomorrow.The bus came really quickly,and I went 'THANK YOU JESUS!'. Heh.
On the bus trip home,I thought about a friend that I found one of the greatest blessings to my life.All the great times we shared,how we'd make funny faces at each other,and everything else memorable.I smiled to myself,just by thinking and having flashbacks.
And I wondered if my friend knew I was thinking all these.And how much I'd want to thank him.Whatever it maybe,I thank God.
Also to all my very beloved friends,Hannah,Daniel,Samantha,(and because I know he wants me to say this)James,thank you all for making my life brighter :D
God bless!
Friday, September 11, 2009 / 12:56 AM
I see.
Sometimes,I'll look at my life in this world and I'll let out a huge sigh of satisfaction.
Not that I'm actually fully satisfied with my life,but I'm marveled at how much God has been willing to bless me.
I have a family,I have beautiful friends,a home,days to look forward to,and many reasons to smile.I get opportunities to be put through trials,I know how its like to have been hurt,and learn fruitful lessons,and given chances to bless others.
I'm glad I've been hurt.I'm glad I've been broken,and I'm extremely thankful that I have a God whom is willing to heal all my hurts,making me a walking testimony.I thank God that he has brought friends into my life that are always willing to be there by my side and see me through.I thank God that he has placed me in lives of others to bless them.And the list goes on.My God's wonderful,isn't he?(:
And I think,how about the others out there?Those who know nothing about happiness,nothing about love,nothing about proper companionship,what about them? Imagine their life! Isn't it well,dreadful?
Sometimes,I'd like to go over and bless everyone.As a matter in fact,all the time!I want to go over and show them love,and show them the beautiful and bright side of life.How beautiful it is,with Christ,that can give you life and life more abundantly.
Isn't it selfish of me to keep it in?
I need to do something.Thank you Jesus(:
God bless!
Wednesday, September 9, 2009 / 1:12 AM
Days that I love.
Hello world!
I just felt like blogging,so I just will.
Oh well,its another week.Another week that I'll get older,and another week that I'll have time to do something.Fruitful or not,I have no idea.But of course,I'll do my best to make it so.
And so,what do we do with this time we have?
I usually think.
Goodness knows I think of everything.I think its already in my blood that I'll break down thoughts and figure out quite a lot of answers by myself,think of new ideas,and sometimes see and notice things that some people don't.
And because of this,I can understand a lot of things,see and feel things in many many different lights,and complicate my thoughts further.Contradictory,I break down thoughts and yet they can get more complicated xD
Often,people never get my point because they don't see things the way I do.I can have the most vicious quarrels,and because of such complications in my views and thoughts the quarrel goes on because the other party doesn't get me.I'll then wonder whats so difficult to get,and I remember that others don't think like I do.
Strange,now that I think of it.
But I like it that way (:
God bless!
Tuesday, September 8, 2009 / 12:25 AM
If in secret.
Hello world!
I've just been haunted by a disturbing thought.
The thought of which if I've been actually hurting people without knowing.And the thought of which if I have been changing for the worse,without knowing it.
I don't know,but I'm worried.Sometimes,things just slip out.Things that aren't actually what they mean.But they come out,and that they may actually irritate,hurt and anger people.
Now you have to admit that that's a a pretty disturbing thought.
I feel that maybe I've been this horrid,hurting idiot that says the wrong things all the time.Maybe I judge myself too much.
But maybe its true.
Man I have to watch what I'm doing.
Its difficult to be myself,often I feel like I contradict.I'm as violent and as logical as a guy can get,but yet I can love with compassion for my family and friends.I can be intelligent,I can be extremely stupid.
And I'm always having the thought that people all think with a way,and in my actions,some may annoy people,some may irritate them,some may offend them,depending on how they think.When people all think differently,everyone has such thoughts.
Maybe,I've not been a nice person after all.
And its horrible.I love people,I do care.But sometimes,it can't show as well.And instead,maybe the opposite comes out.
God help me.
Saturday, September 5, 2009 / 10:52 PM
So happy.
Hello world!
I had a ingeniously good day today.
Being a Referee was fun.Very fun.And I refereed a boy's bout!More fun,because guys are daring and fierce.Although they accidentally squashed the piste plug due to the violence,and I didn't clear it because I didn't see it,and got a short,strict reminder.Oh well.
Then I helped Juliana with a walk-in fencing introduction where only one Caucasian kid came in.Interesting,but alright.
And went for edge!Fantastic service,and I met my fantastic friends,and talked with my fantastic God(:
I'm very blessed.Time to give that to others.
God bless!
Friday, September 4, 2009 / 11:34 PM
Start work.
Hello world!
I'm officially starting my job as a referee tomorrow for the MINIME competition!I'm super excited,being my first time :D
Oh goodness I'm super excited! I just hope I don't screw up.
Anyway,I've been reflecting on how God has blessed me in different aspects of life,and I truly feel blessed.Many of which I definitely don't deserve.Once again,my God is faithful,and he can't wait to bless his people!I'm still amazed at this fact (:
God bless!(:
Thursday, September 3, 2009 / 11:27 PM
You come along because I love your face (:
Tuesday, September 1, 2009 / 8:21 PM
And the soft moonlight seems to shine in your blush.
Happy September.
Hello world!
Today I had a tiring but lovely day.
I went to Orchard with mom,and we went shopping(ARGH) and I got myself 2 tops for my stagnant wardrobe that has barely any proper tops that I like wearing out.Reason mainly due to the fact that I have a F- skill for shopping.
Then,I bought a Garfield comic book.A 3 in 1 Garfield comic book.I love comics,so I think Garfield is a good buy.I bought it with my 25 dollar voucher from speech day :D
Then I went to art friend for some brushes and paint.
It has finally dawned on me that I need a dress.Not just any dress,but one that is formal enough for formal events and casual enough to wear out and not attract too much attention.
This dawned on me because I just received a wedding invitation.And I love weddings.Except the dressing up part,because I usually never have anything proper to wear,and need to borrow from my sister.
Goodness.WHY DO GIRLS HAVE TO WEAR DRESSES/SKIRTS/MAKE-UP?Heh.