Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?

.Nice to see you here.
.Gin Ming/Ren Ming,whichever is easier for you.
.29th December 1994.
.Epee fencer
.Loves God.
.Art.
And collects notebooks.

Hello!

Picture credits to http://rimfrost.deviantart.com/

Ok,I have a 'baluku'(bruise)on my forehead now.Thanks to yesterday while going to the public toilet at Yishun MRT station the door gave me a hard slam on my forehead while opening.Ouch xD.

Not a very happy post today.I need to let lose a little bit by just yelling it all out.Well,I really have to admit that this world is really coming to a disaster state.I have friends going lesbian,more and more emo-ers to come by day,and people who self-pity.No such thing as happiness to them.The word happy isn't found anywhere in their heads.

It's insanity.I should really show you some of the display names my friends have.It's disturbing,VERY.Yes Fenella,your display name would win the most emo and disturbing display name known in history.Why can't you be happy?Why can't you stop talking about killing yourself?Why can't you stop crying over stupid and pointless things?How old are you?Why can't you think positively?You know if you have any problems you have friends like me to help you out.I still care for you,and as a friend I want you to be happy.It's not cool NOR good to emo,seriously.

My grandma keeps asking me to compare her illness to the other old people out there,the reason because she wants to pity herself.She can't appreciate her life.The only few things she thanks God for is for me (because I'm the most free one who takes care of her)and my auntie who takes regular visits to my house to care for her.I can list out more than 15 things she can be happy about in her life,and I don't see why she can't.She likes being pitied I guess.And not by one person,not by ten,but by everyone she meets.

But she's my grandmother.So one way or another,I still love her.I can see that she loves me too,but she has problems expressing it properly,with her self-pity in the way.I know there's still happiness in you grandma,let it out and live your days happy.Illness is not a focus in your life.

Ok now that the dark cloud in my head is lighter,time for another thing that happened yesterday.

Rainy day it was as I said.So at the traffic light I was waiting to cross,I was just standing there getting wetter and wetter.This really nice middle-aged lady (thank God for nice people in the world)that held an umbrella over me.She's really nice,talking to me all about the cold weather,and how horrid it is for a young girl like me to be drenched in the rain.

Then I decided that I should ask her whether she was a Christian.

So I asked.And her reply was no.And she isn't a free thinker nor atheist.She said she goes to the temple just up there close to my house.I froze.I don't have much time to speak to her about Christ at all.I didn't even know how to start telling her about Christ seeing my time limit.All the time I had was just the time taken to walk across the road.And I all I said was a simple,sad,'Oh'.

And for my devotion that night I asked God to help me when I come across these types of situations again.That I would read the word more often to equip myself.That I would bring more people to Christ.

I can never forget that lady I met.Plump,long frizzy hair,red lip stick and big eyes. Her smile was glowing,kind hearted.If I ever get the chance to meet her again,God help me to speak to her about Christ.Or else,I pray for her to get saved.Someday.Somehow.Amen.

God I once again thank you for this life you've given me.Looks like a sunny day today! ^^