Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?

.Nice to see you here.
.Gin Ming/Ren Ming,whichever is easier for you.
.29th December 1994.
.Epee fencer
.Loves God.
.Art.
And collects notebooks.

Hello people!

A splendiferous testimony and sharing today!Haha.

I really thank God for today,the sermon is by all means BRILLIANT AND GOOD.I thought what Pastor Jeremy Seaward talked about today is really very true,about being trapped inside a coffin,dead.

In Luke Chapter 7:11,it talks about Jesus raising a Widow's one and only son which was dead.Jesus was walking with his disciples to a city gate,where they were carrying the son of the widow's dead body out,weeping and mourning for him.But then Jesus showed compassion.Jesus told the widow :'Don't cry'.And he reached out to the coffin and asked the body of her son to arise.And immediately,the young boy,once dead rose from the coffin and started talking.Everyone there was scared of course,except Jesus.But of course,the boy's alive,and they all were glorifying Jesus (: Amen.

But yes,Pastor Jeremy talked on the point that I've never thought of,of the picture of us like this with God.

You see,we are all like the dead boy in the coffin,without Christ.No matter how much we claim ourselves to be Christians or good,without Christ,and we meddle with sin,we are still,DEAD.No different from just a dead person walking.

But Jesus comes,he reaches out to you,asks you to arise form the coffin.And there,we make a decision.Whether we choose to listen to him arise, or not listen and not arise.Arise,meaning choosing to accept him and leave your sinful ways,being alive.Not arise,meaning choosing to continue our sinful ways and staying in the coffin,dead.

And as you all know,for the wages of sin is death.But Jesus came to restore connection for us with our most MIGHTY AND LOVING FATHER in heaven,that we can now be once again be with God,and not separated.

Are we dead inside?What do you choose?Arise,or not?

But one more thing to keep in mind.Yes,you might want to arise.But remember,arise NOT JUST because you don't want to be dead.Of course we want to be alive.But the point is,don't do it because you HAVE to,to prevent yourself from dying.Do it because you want to,and because you love God.

Also,another point Pastor Jeremy made was that ONLY JESUS among his disciples showed compassion upon the widow and the boy.Are we like the disciples who didn't bother and see the dead continue being dead?Or are we like Jesus,who showed compassion and saved the dead.

Today when there was a alter call for going back to God and arising from our *coffins* and be truly alive again,I went for it.I know there are still things in my life that are still sinful.I know that somehow,I'm sorta dead too.How I'm like the disciples,to continue seeing some of my friends continue being dead spiritually.And how I am also sinful in some of my habits,God has shown me.And I realized.I really,well,am dead.

I didn't cry.But still God is truly love.I was really touched,but I just didn't cry.He told me,how he's not angry at me,but all the more he loves me really so much.And I'm sure,he forgived me.That I am truly grateful,and love him.

And then I talked to God about my sinful ways.Yes,sin is death in disguise.Sin might seem alright,comfortable,but it still leads to death.I remember God asking me 'Are you truly willing to leave your sinful ways and follow me out of love?Or are you just doing it because you want to be alive,because you HAVE to?'.

And after thinking long about it,from deep down in my heart,I replied him 'Yes,I am truly willing to leave my old ways for you God.'But yes,I can't keep from sin alone.I will ask and seek God for help.Sure I will slip once in awhile,I'm not perfect.But with God's help,surely I can do according to his will.

Too,I'm sure God will help me with communication with my friends about the gospel.I've been rejected,yes.Many many many times.But one day I'm sure I can succeed!Nothing is too difficult for my God,he is great and almighty.

He held me today,on my left.My right side,hand and leg was cold and trembling,but my left side,hand and leg was warm,and as still as a stone.Oh,I really want to just really love him and do what he wants me to,and live according to his will.There was so much love in me later on,I just want to go about giving hugs.And now at home,I'm hugging a teddy bear that I did when I was really really young,it's about 3-5 years older than me I think.

God I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU.Thank you,for making me alive again.