Ming.
Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 / 3:54 PM
I'm sorry.
Hello people!
OH NO NO NO NO.I'm crying!!!Yes yes,despite not being girly I still cry.Dang.
But yes,since later on I'm going for the Drama rehearsal,I told my dad about it in the car on the way to school just for his information.He didn't like it.He said that I'm still a student and shouldn't be so involved in church,after all,3 days of my week have vfc in them.Friday where there's net,Saturday where there's edge,and Sunday where there's morning and evening service.
He said I should take time off to cope with my studies and all.Not that he's not encouraging me to not go church,he's glad that I'm glorifying God in ministry,but he says I'm TOO involved.Then he said that I shouldn't say yes to everything the church needs me to help out in,he almost got so angry that he wanted to talk to my leaders.And that's not it.The thing that got me crying was he said I don't spend enough time at home,with the family.And that's almost like neglecting them.
That struck me straight in the middle of my heart.Immediately after he said that I started crying.Loads.The tears wouldn't stinking stop falling.I tried holding them.But they blew all out.Dang,I didn't want them to.But it hurts yeah.To hear that from someone you love.To hear that they think you neglect them.
My dad said that he hasn't had a proper time spent with me for a really long time.Sunday,family day and I'm not home for lunch or dinner.I'm busy with duties and stuff.Till late late late.Then I knew.My dad misses me,though we live in the same house and all.He and my mom work from day till night on weekdays and Saturdays and I could be asleep when they return,and even if I wasn't(most of the time) the time spent won't be so much either.Then when they finally get their day off on Sunday where am I?Anywhere.But home.
I cried so much on the car as he was telling me these things.As a matter in fact I'm crying now.Argh.But yes,I'm sorry.So so sorry.I'm sorry I didn't make time for you,my family.I'm sorry that I've gone missing,that I've not spent quality time with you.
I'M SO SO SO SORRY.BUT I LOVE YOU,FAMILY.
I'm going to really make more time for them now.I'm not going to forget them.They were the ones who made me into what I am today,and I don't spend time with them.That's like SUPER UNFAIR.I'm coming back,I am.
God bless ya all (: