Ming.
Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?
Thursday, September 11, 2008 / 8:11 PM
all of my life
Hello people!
9/11.So many people died today years ago,when the terrorist crashed the plane into World Trade Center.I really had quite an insane week in school.I've suffered emotional hurts(A LOAD OF EM) and witnessed much much insanity.Including an itty bit of insanity in myself due to the insanity around me.
And the more I think of it the world could use some slapping,shaking and a huge alarm clock.It's really nuts.So nuts that I can't even believe it myself.It's so evil.So full of hatred,bitterness.I don't see so much genuinely nice people much around now a days.
And just now I went downstairs to watch something that my brother asked me to watch,I passed him a blanket and gave him a hug.Rather cliche,but I really love my brother a lot.He's in N.S and the family can't see him so often anymore.I didn't want to let go and just cry,because the world is just so nuts,and I've got such heavy attacks.It feels as someone pressed my heart the hardest they could,and squeezed it till it's gagging and about to burst any moment.It's painful,and many a times I feel like yelling 'STOP IT!!!'.
BUT MY GOD CARES.And the fact that I'm hurting now it hurts him too.And the most comforting thing is,even though I feel so broken,so painful,so bruised,he is still willing to put me back together and tell me that he loves me.He welcomes me into his arms and tells me,
'welcome back,my daughter.Things are going to be fine.'And this Saturday when I go to edge,I'm going to make an effort to come full before Christ and worship him.I need healing,I need restoration.And only God can give me that.He accepts me for who I am.He loves me the way I am.But he loves me too much for me to remain that way.
Thank you God.For loving me.And because you live in me and you love me,I still have a reason to live,to love,to worship and stand strong.
God bless you.
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship.