Ming.
Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?
Friday, December 12, 2008 / 11:57 PM
Youth Camp!
Hello people!
YES I'M BACK FROM YOUTH CAMP.No pictures today though,I'm lazy to upload xP
Although I have a testimony still(:
So so,youth camp this year was lovely lovely.But it still loses location and food wise to last year's!The place was fly/mosquito infested and occasionally,stinks.But never mind that,now lets talk about the games and such.
I have to admit I love my group.EMPIRO!Lead by Jonathan Gnin and Charis Tan,my team really made me feel welcome and I love em all!Jonathan who had amazing leadership,Charis that was super friendly,Joel that braved through many scary games for us,Joseph that brought moments of entertainment,Abel that was a really cool guy,Siyin the supposedly Big Sister to me for the whole camp,FRANNY that went high together with me,Zoe that is so warm and bubbly,Sequina and Hannah whom were the sweet lil girls for the team,Daniel whom I can always depend on,Mathieu the strong and nice guy that protected me during the Chicken/mother hen game,Germaine that was so lovable,and Sammuel that took up a lot of embarrassing positions for our group(: Are they AWESOME OR WHAT.
I enjoyed this year's games,although short as they were.Of them all,I liked the one where we had to dress up Sammuel with pieces of cloth into a cross dressed bride,and the water bomb game where all of us protected our dearest Francel with all we could at the cost of painful water bombs.They were all really fun,especially that my team had an extremely act cute/'demoralizing' signature move.EMPIRO YOU ROCK.
I loved service.Because they always spoke to my heart,and during worship I felt God's presence so strongly and I couldn't do anything but worship.I forget all my hurts,my pains,and I rest in God.I jumped high and insanely during praise,even when my hair wasn't tied up.As nuts and as idiotic as I looked,I didn't care because it's God I'm jumping for.At worship when I worshiped God I didn't want to open my eyes because God's presence was so sweet,and I wanted to stay that way.
Pastor Sahle was POWER!He really preached with a lot of passion and all his sermons spoke to my heart.Like the one about dead things.It's so true that God uses all your dead things into something that's so lively and something that's going to mightily shake the nation.I was reassured that in my weakness God is so perfect and so strong,that when I fall he will pick me up.Even when I'm such a weakling he calls me to what I cannot imagine myself to be,something so amazing and he is glorified.
And right after this youth camp I'm attacked.Until now then I realised that I'm actually a extremely insecure person that's horribly afraid of hurting people and making them mad,and because of this I'm always afraid of people one way or another.Even if they're the most lovable person alive,unless they're my family at least a tinge of me have a fear of them.
My brother tells me the evil one's trying to steal the seed,and he asks me to stay firm.Being a Christian is spiritual warfare after all isn't it?And as far as I know I'm going to win this one.
Before the youth camp I felt useless about myself spiritually.As strong as the word may seem,yes I used the correct and a honest word,USELESS.I never dared to believe nor dream that I could do something for this generation.I didn't believe that I could touch lives.I didn't believe that I can have disciples.I didn't believe that I can really help someone grow spiritually.I obviously don't believe that I can be something of worth either.I didn't believe that I could do anything,to sum it up.Day after day although I love God,and I love all my friends,and didn't trust myself to be a good enough friend.I didn't feel worthy of God at all.As a matter in fact I feel that more people don't like me compared to people who like me.I did feel condemned I admit.That's why I look forward to every time I could come to church and once again rest in the Lord and I would forget all my fears.
AND THAT,was my coffin.I have a lot of dead things in me.WAY TOO MUCH DEAD THINGS.I feared people's thoughts and I feared people's opinions.I really agree with Pastor Sahle's words,that the greatest deliverance anyone can receive is the deliverance from the fear of people's opinions.
The last service,I cried out to God so badly because I wanted his anointing on me.I'm sick of feeling worthless,I'm sick of feeling like a nobody because I know God still sees in me something brilliant and something great.I wanted to touch this generation and I wanted to be someone who would touch lives.I spoke so loudly in tongues and cried out again and again for an anointing,and with that,God proved to me that he has anointed me through the fact that after that I seriously prayed like a maniac.I prayed like I never did,with so much passion and a fire of energy that blasted out from inside of me for this generation.When the service ended I wanted to run out and evangelize to people,although I couldn't xD Now THAT is what I call the touch of God.I don't care what people are going to think of me.What matters,is what God thinks.
Because Jesus braved through EVERYTHING the world through at him,he is worthy of my praise and I want to be like him.There is absolutely nothing that's impossible for me to do with him by my side,and even when I'm under attack,he will help me overcome.
I can take the city with him by my side.Amen.
Worthy is the Lamb
seated on the throne
Crown you now with many crowns
you reign victorious
High and lifted up
Jesus son of God
the Darling of heaven crucified
WORTHY IS THE LAMBGod bless ya all(: