Ming.
Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?
Wednesday, February 11, 2009 / 6:09 PM
Because your smile makes me smile.
Hello again.
I think baby Kate is SUPER cute lah.Whenever I brush my my index knuckle on her cheek she sneaks a smile and eventually bursts out into a little giggle that looks like the picture you see here.
I like it when people smile.Whether you're fat,thin,frowny,wrinkled,pretty or not so pretty,when you smile from your heart you're at your loveliest.
And I don't like people who stick to me and act pathetic.It makes me SICK.I live with someone like that.Thats right.LIVE WITH.
God,I want the patience that you have so so badly.I want the love you have.I don't want to flare up anymore.I know I'm supposed to love this particular someone but it's so hard to do it because she always acts pathetic takes advantage when possible.God I feel like she deliberately wants to tear my emotions and sanity apart.
I can't understand why she craves that sort attention so badly.Why she wants sympathy.Why she is so weak.Why she is so fussy.I simply can't see it.Why she HAS to disturb me with utter RUBBISH and NONSENSE when I merely want peace.Why she has to PRETEND to sob bitterly when one little thing isn't done her way.God,I can't see why.I can't see why she always has to drag my mood down for her own little sadistic sense of joy.
Why can't she be strong and take up life's knocks?She's already complaining about life's little nudges.I don't see why she can't be NICE.Why she can't ask me how was school.Why she can't stop seeking for sympathy.Why she can't stop comparing herself to ANY old lady she sees and always claim that she's the less fortunate one.why can't she be OPTIMISTIC.
God I feel so cheated.When I loved her,she took advantage of me by making me cry for her sorrow.When I loved her,she disturbed and irritated me with all the nonsense she can think of.
God,only you can help me now.Please help me.
God bless!