Ming.
Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?
Tuesday, February 17, 2009 / 8:59 PM
You hurt.
Hello people!
I've been having a rather bad first 2 days of the week.It's only Tuesday!!Oh dear.
I got scolded in POA.I admit I was wrong in a way,but the impact of the tone of the voice hurt me a lot more than it should have and left me in tears by the time lesson ended.
If my teacher is ACTUALLY reading this,I'll be real and very very frank.As much as she is angry at me its also the amount she hurt me.Maybe more.Sounds girlish and PMS-sy,but yeah,no other way to explain it yeah.
The reason why I cannot understand POA is because I can't absorb it in.And I never dare to ask questions,because when I do the teacher will end up in a what seems to be harsh and 'scolding' tone to me,and it makes me feel pathetic.Sometimes,even when I TRY to ask questions,the teacher might say wait,or eventually end up scolding me or saying that I'm too stressed up and don't answer my question.Obviously,a student in the right mind wouldn't dare to speak up.
And today YOU scolded me.I admit I was wrong in late completion of homework,not exchanging answers,in blank-o-ing my answers,but I couldn't see why you had to raise your voice at me making a huge error in something I never understood well enough and needed a lot more help in.More than raising a voice,as a matter of fact.It felt harsh and in a sense,MOCKING.I couldn't help but feel lousy about myself,and the more you scolded you RUBBED IN RIGHT SMACK IN MY FACE.You had no idea that I did poorly in my previous tests did you?You had no idea that although I studied I couldn't do as well as I wanted did you?You had total ZERO understanding that I already felt lousy enough about myself and the way you scolded me left a HUGE NEGATIVE IMPACT than you'd EVER expect it to have.You even scolded me about not having a red and green pen(because they BOTH ran out of ink).
You said you were very angry at me.But you can't compare it to how I felt like.I seriously have nothing against you.I'm just being real and frank,and if you ever have to yell like that at me ever again,I'll start to lose it for POA.You left me in tears.And you're not even related to me.
I'll see you tomorrow.And I hope you actually understand.
God,I put the rest of this week in your hands.Amen.
God bless!