Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?

.Nice to see you here.
.Gin Ming/Ren Ming,whichever is easier for you.
.29th December 1994.
.Epee fencer
.Loves God.
.Art.
And collects notebooks.

Hello people!

Today was FUN! Although the Foilists didn't emerge through(neither did the Epeeist) well done! It isn't easy getting through ya know.Haha.

Juliana did a little check.She realized that majority of the champions of the competition trained at least 4-5 times a week.Something I'd have loved to do,but can't afford,finance wise as well as academically.I would if I could.Hah,it rhymes(:

Today was fun because I did CIP for piste 4 by keeping scores and taking time.I could learn so much from the guy Epee fencers.They can like literally FLY! There was this really cool guy,he got a really nice hit when his opponent did a Fleche at him and I reckoned he jumped about 3-4 feet off the ground backwards,flicked his blade and got his opponent on the arm.Super nice hit lah,and he really left me in awe.Haha xD

Nonetheless I met funny referees with funny accents and funny ways of presiding.And I made time and score errors for at least 5 times already.Oh man.Then this poor Sabre fencer lost a point thanks to me,then the referee jokingly said to the guy who lost point(in Russian/Italian/French accent 'You kill her for your point yes?' I felt so bad!I apologized madly to the guy after the bout and he shook my hand saying it was alright.Whoopsy.

But taking scores were really fun.My next one on one I'm going to see if I can get training like a real MAN! LOL xD

Thank and praise God for today,really(:

God bless!
Hello people!

To sum up the inter-school competition,I died.Simple right.Haha.

Something about competitions,there's really a twist you feel in your heart when you lose in a bout.I lost to my own school people,and won someone who won one of the toughest fencers.Funny right.

I felt super disappointed in myself because I lost to my own school people both by a blinking careless point,then I started tearing from the disappointment.I need to get better,like seriously.And I won't use my arm injury as an excuse.I long for the day when I can finally be good and qualify for the nationals.One day,I'll be a great fencer.Provided if God wants me to.God,let me be a REALLY REALLY good fencer asap.Pretty pretty please? xD

I'm short.I'm not that strong.I'm not that fast.I met like literally GIANTS,on the piste who were fast powerful and tall(smart too of course).And it irritates me that I'm so short and so not strong,and these really tall and strong fencers get me so easily.Face it,I still SUCK.

No,I cannot remain like that.I'm going to nail it someday.One day,I'll train hard enough to qualify for the nationals.One day,I'll be good enough to appear in the SEA games,the Olympics.One day,I'll make my coaches proud and get Gold or Silver medals in big events.One day.Just THAT one day,it'll happen.

Sometimes I wish I could just change my studies into one on one fencing.Sometimes I wished I chosed Singapore Sports School(and result in my parents murdering me xD).Never going to happen(not in SMSS the nun school,and not in Singapore that always emphasizes CRAZILY on education).

Especially when I saw Justin fence today(ex C7 classmate 2006)I was grossed by the fact that I knew him and he's the first ranking in B division Men's Foil.The last time I knew him properly in Primary School he was sporty and in Track and field,and now hes a national fencer with 1st rankings(and likely a lot of medals too xD).And his parents support him so much.My parents? Not likely.

I want that national ranking!Coach,please train me hard!I'll push myself,I'll be willing to train.I want to be up there,because I'm sick of being down here.

I don't know why I'm suddenly so insane about fencing today.Haha xD

God bless!
Hello people!

Very fun day today,and many thanks to the dear KIMMY LIM of smss Foil Fencers to come help me out in making the board today(:

I trained with Wei Wen today and he was high.Because he hasn't slept for 2 days straight.So to keep awake he did the weirdest retarded things.Like ever.Today's training was a good one,but an extremely strange one because coach was REALLY weird today.He danced,did catwalks,called me a jellyfish and the strangest one of calling me cute.

And to be realistic in training my blade locks,he really went to attack me by coming straight,so the whole point is to do a proper defend so I won't get hurt.But being a student of course,I'm bound to make mistakes once in awhile,and it resulted in quite a disastrous one this round:

Still fresh.

Then it became red.

When I got the hit I went 'OUCH!' and Coach was like 'Oh Sh**'.The tone was a calm but at the same time a worried one.Contradicting eh.

He purposely ended the exercise earlier so I could check on the wound.And it bled abit. Somehow Wei Wen got a first aid kit and sprayed disinfectant on the wound.My worst blade wound ever,like seriously.Everyone that found out at edge were like 'WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?!?!?' Even my brother.

Thus,this has shown that I need to keep my fencing distance and do better locks! Haha xD

God's fantastic today,and I really thank him for that(:

God Bless!

Hello people!

That's right,I DID fence till my fingers ached so much that they had totally no feeling and went all numb on me.Then I got a bloody(literally) bruise.Forgot from who.Haha xD Those were the two things I gained physically from fencing today.Hohoho.

Coach was nice to me like always.Although he was disappointed with my performance today with 2 losses and 2 wins(thanks to numb fingers)he still practically explained to me my faults on the piste itself till I understood.I think I'm having a bad day,I'm not fencing too well.Must improve! The inter-school championships are on next Monday.I think I'll ask if I can fence coach on Saturday when I'm having one on one.Although the lose is obvious,I'll learn something(:

My half of the class had math lesson with Mrs Juan today,and we enjoyed it so much(for once,HAHA) that we lost track of time.Surprise surprise.Heh.

Its amazing to see how God blesses each one of us each day.Amen(:

God bless!

Hello people!

I was so tired yesterday.After school,after training,and after rudely squeezing out from the bus.Not a very fun sight.Heh.

Henry thinks that I'm going to break my knee because when I lounge my knee bends for o reason.I guess it's gone wonky especially after the fall I had at the school hall (hey it rhymes!xD)My knee since then has felt funny and I can't tell whether the bone is out of shape.Hopefully not.

Huang Ren Ming has to know how to stop being so clumsy.Sis promised me a suit of metal if I ever bang my head again(of which happened so many times already)and a metal helmet.Ahahaha.

I had a nice day today.Thank God for that.

God has been so faithful in his ways.Be it in school,in homework,in a lot of things.And I really thank God that he's been blessing me so much,even in little ways.Many many little blessings=A LOT OF BLESSINGS!

Praise the Lord indeed.

God bless!


Hello people!

After a LOOOONG LOOOOOONG time,I have alas decided that I should go get braces.Yes yes,I decided!(:

It's not going to be so bad I guess.They're going to look ugly and weird(Oh C'mon,squares on your teeth?Yeah.)but it'll finally rid me of my discomfort.The worry of weird crooked smiles on photos,the irritating feeling of not being able to brush your teeth properly because they're crooked in all sorts of funny directions,and the funny feeling in your mouth that your teeth are crooked instead of straight.

I guess it's exciting to see your teeth start straightening too(: I've had my crooked teeth for around 4-5 years already,it ought to be exciting seeing them go nice and straight.

It's not going to be so bad(:

God bless!
GOOD VERY EARLY MORNING!

Alrighty,I'm doing 6 insane Art mindmaps now.Shouldn't be blogging.But ah well.Drank enough tea at Old town with Charis and Ah Tan just now to keep me awake for quite some time to come(: Its Saturday tomorrow after all.

Its fun doing mind maps.I like drawing the little arrows that point everywhere to this and that.Haha.

Random but I'm believing for miracles from God.AMEN!:D

Okay back to work.Heh.

God bless!(:
Hello people!

I'm listening to Chris Tomlin's 'How can I keep from singing' again.A beautiful song really.

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise?
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love?
How can I keep from shouting Your name?
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

How can I keep from singing Your praise?
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love?
How can I keep from shouting Your name?
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And I fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

No matter what I'm going through,really,indeed how can I keep from singing?There's a rock I can depend and cling on.And the Lord of Lords,the King of Kings loves me.How great is that!

I went to watch 'Paul Blart-The Mall Cop' today with Daniel,David,Shao Wei,Sarah and Charis Lim.I was laughing LIKE MAD.Paul Blart is THE MAN!I love the way he fights.So simple and yet so witty!Haha(:

Today a funny random truck drove past me,and the guy in it looked out,faced me,smiled and waved.That was nice.

God bless!
Hello people!

I was looking at some of my pictures when I was A LOT younger,and I really missed how it was like then.So I picked out a few that I liked.

Kindergarden.Heh.

Sis,me and brother! We're all so cute in the past.

3rd birthday.I like cherries(:

I think I was 2(:

Why I like this should be quite obvious xD

OMW HUANG MING MING WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU.Haha xD

I do love kids,yes I do.

God bless!
I have a new golden blade!And its SUPER HEAVY.Like really VERY HEAVY.Its going to train my finger muscles like mad.Haha.

I got into another fight with my grandmother.And this really isn't my fault.

I hate the fact that she's so ungrateful.Everything I've done for her.And she's always complaining about me behind my back.All the disobedient nonsense.REALLY.I don't know why she's so ARGGHHH.

God,I need to do something.I want to not hate her,but its so difficult.Please help me.

God bless!
Hello people!

Although I did win all my bouts today,I still thought I suck big time because all our strategies are non existent.Includes mine.I think if I fenced coach and he gave me different scenarios on the piste it might help,but meanwhile I need to figure out how to do them myself.I do too much stop hits.

I want to be a sports woman!To have abs,nicely toned muscles,and own guys.HAHAHAHA.

Today Cheng Siew and I discussed how the school makes us look like,and Cheng Siew summed it up SUPER PERFECTLY and ACCURATELY in one word.This word is so precise and accurate,and I can't think of any other English word to describe it but this.This four lettered word,describes how my school makes us look like EXACTLY.And what IS this fantastic four lettered word?:

NUNS.

A stroke of genius.NUNS!THATS RIGHT!Why didn't I think of that before?

One splendid example is our CCA skirt.Its something I actually want to lodge a complaint about,because its so stinking long it can go till about the end of my calf muscles,which is about 5-10 cm below the knee.RIDICULOUS.I did a check,I can pull the skirt all the way up to the armpits an wear it as a dress and you can't even see my school shorts,which are also LONG and only about 2-3inches above my knees.

Whats so nice about long skirts? Why can't they be knee length?And the skirts aren't JUST long,they're HIGH TO THE WAIST.Its crazy.

And the socks are requested to be high.Plus all the no this no that,all the emphasis on demure,nice gentle sweetie sweetie ladies nonsense.The only part they got correct was the creative mature and confident part.Other than that,BORING BORING NUNS THEY MAKE US OUT TO BE.

Seriously,the best sports woman,best actresses,the best singers,the best musicians are yet to be.But all this perfect,sweetie sweetie nun-y pifle isn't helping.

I'm just being frank.Scold me or whatever,but I really just think it looks like this at times,through the eyes of a student.

God bless!
hello world!

What I must drill into my head today from training:

I MUST LEARN HOW ON EARTH TO PROPERLY ADJUST MY FENCING DISTANCE FROM THE OPPONENT.

Yeah.Most important take away from one on one training today.

I did a lot better in one on one today compared to the last time,coach said I did good(: I want a pair of dumb bells to train my muscles so I can have stronger locks and parries in fencing.

Yesterday was the encounter,and I had absolutely no idea that I couldn't simply step in because there were so many that did that in the past.I was so sian when I was told to leave the encounter,because I really made the effort to come down to accompany Sarah and Charis,all the way from Farrer road to Yishun and only to find that the door was locked,sat at the HDB block opposite,read the newspaper and at the same time stared at the door till it opened(which took almost 1 hour or more by the way),then to find out that I wasn't allowed in the encounter.You know that sian feeling right.

But I don't like going for something and leaving it without proper time spent.You know,at least an hour or two.Three or four would be even better.

So the only one I had to spend time with yesterday was lil Vanessa of 7 years old,Sis Doreen's daughter.I decided to spend my time with her because she's by right even more sian than I,having to play all alone because her Mom's the YC and has to stay in the encounter.So I entertained her by doing all the children stuff with her. You know,like drawing,playing ball,doing origami,playing pretend,looking at little games such as the little pet shop.

'Let's do rainbows!' was something Vanessa excitedly told me yesterday.

And I really admire the child's imagination.She didn't restrict me to plainly coloring.She wanted me to do shapes in em.

Then she taught me how to make envelopes(her style) for putting the rainbow pictures in.

Then we did some patterns on another piece of colored paper and stuck them on the envelopes.

She addressed her envelope to her parents(which was really sweet btw) and I addressed my envelope to her.

And I read her little books.Made me feel like a kid again xD

Then she went to disturb Anthony.HAHAHAHAHA.

Then Sis Doreen thanked me for playing with Vanessa.'Say thank you to Jie Jie!'.

No,thank YOU.

It was joyful having to play with Vanessa.She called me 'Jie Jie!'.It let me have a taste of what its like to be an older sister.She was like, 'Jie Jie,can you help me with this?'.No one has ever called me like that.Only me calling the others xD

Other than that,it did help me see through the eyes of a small child again.The child's excitement over simplicity,over simple games of pretend,were things I enjoyed when I was that age.

Over much thinking I love children because of their bright innocence and their cheerful excitement over the simplest of things.Not like teens and adults who ask for so much,PSPs,new clothes,latest phones,all that high tech nonsense.No teen or adult really ever gets excited over scattered saga seeds,a lollipop or a teddy bear anymore.

A lot of teens now adays are excited about all the wrong things...tattoos,'hot' superstars,being emo,clubbing,BGR,all that rata-tata nonsense.Where did the child-like joy and excitement go?Some teens even go stressed and crazy over workloads.No fun,no joy.Where did that child side of you go?

Vanessa reminded me how it was like being a child again.

I remember when I got excited over my sister bringing me out to have KFC or Mcdonalds as a child.

I remember the joy of dashing from the playground to play under the block with my friends when it rained.

I remember the joy of picking up loads of saga seeds scattered on a pavement after it rained with my sister and keeping em in a small pink ceramic box in the shape of a house.

I remember the excitement of getting candy floss,candy or a new toy in pasar malams with my grandma.

I remember the happiness of receiving a red/white necklace from my grandma.

I remember the joy drawing by my parent's bed side and then joyfully show them what I've drawn,and they'd praise me.

I remember the excitement of my parents telling me that they're bringing me to go East Coast Park to cycle.

I remember how happy I was whenever my parents brought me to Holland V to have half boiled eggs(because I loved them)in the fresh mornings.

I remember how I played pretend all by myself and played until I fell asleep.

I remember how I loved it when I was allowed to get ice lollies from the petrol station.

I remember how I could create picnic scenes with towels,small tables and little pieces of toy food and I'd play pretend by myself,enjoying myself so much that I forget I'm still in the house.

I remember how I played doctor(which was my ambition as a kid) with a tiny toy first aid kit set and pretend to be really good at it.

I remember how I loved it to play catching with my friends,knowing the fun of having to run away from the catcher and to run fast when you are the catcher.

How I enjoyed the simplicity of life and simple things.

I thought I forgot how it was like to be a child again.Suddenly,it all came back.

God bless!(:
GROSSSSS!!!

MY DEAR BROTHER HUANG RUIXIONG IS 20 YEARS OLD!WELCOME TO THE BIG '2'!!

HAHA,I LOVE YOU BRO,HAVE A FANTASTIC BIRTHDAY WEEK AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU ABUNDANTLY ON YOUR 20TH(:

God bless!
Hello people!

My knee is causing me whole loads of pain whenever I kneel down or bend my knee too much in one shot.Its getting better now(:

Say ouch!Haha.

I don't know why I'm so hyped up about fighting once in awhile,probably because my fantastic CCA is about fighting too.So today I'm hyped about fighting.

In fights its important to fight well.Fight bravely and lose with honor,are some phrases that come about once in awhile.In fencing,we fight brave and fight with power and smarts.Important to look good when you fence too.Haha.

I admire warriors who fight bravely for wars and this bravery makes them look so skilled and respectful,and it makes me want to be like them.Brave,courageous and bold.Fight a good fight.

I fight too.Not just in fencing,but in Christian warfare.I look up to people like Paul who fought amazing fights.But he didn't win it alone.He fought the good fight with Christ by his side.I am more than a conqueror with Christ!I can do all things through him who strengthens me.Amen(:

God is so fantastic,and everything that happens will be because of him.Bad or good,everything happens for a reason.I'm excited at his promises that he has for all of us,they're so numerous and so brilliant!:D

God bless ya(:
Hello people!

While eating lunch with Nicole today both of us came up with a REALLY CRAZY idea.

Since we're going to have two events to look pretty in,prom in Secondary school and either prom,dance or high tea in Poly or J.C,we're considering cross-dressing for our Secondary school prom,because I don't see much of a point wearing pretty and girly because there's already so much girly-ness around.Must stand out a bit,really!

Then we'll be the handsomest girls there lah.I'm thinking of wearing black,nice fitting or skinny jeans with black converse shoes,then wear a smart collared white top with a black tie and smart fitting black coat(a black vest would do too).And a hat.

It's going to be super awesome if I can do that.But I don't think the principal would actually allow because we're 'ladies'.Sheesh.

I really do think my school is capable of twisting the impression of girls like CRAZY sometimes.Other than the Creative,mature and confident part,the rest makes us look TOO PERFECT.And in this case,TOO PERFECT is DISGUSTING.

Although I perfectly understand that they don't really mean what they're saying,but its misleading.When my principal gives talks,there are times where girls look so prim and pretty.Like:

Hello I'm little miss SWEETIE,I don't do sports because I'm so gentle and sweet,and I study and when I ask questions I whisper because if I'm too loud I'm uncouth.And I like CCAs like Library or UG groups because they're so quiet and disciplined,and we present world peace and lovey dovey-ness to the world.I make cookies and like ponies and grow up to be the perfect,sweet,lovely,gentle and little miss pretty housewife and take care of my sweet little children who eat porridge,and I do household chores with a smile on my face.I'm afraid of sweating and hurting my friends,and I don't dare to scold because I might hurt the other's feelings.

Sounds perverted right.Of course they don't mean that,but it looks like it so much at times.

Because loads of us are ANYTHING BUT THAT.We're powerful,bold and CRAZY.Who cares about being prim and proper?Who cares about being sweet and gentle when you have that energy and fire in you?

I don't know.The school sometimes really makes girls looks so EEYER.

Haha,I think a little less emphasis one the word 'LADIES' could be used sometimes.

God bless!(:
Hello people!

Coach scolded me like CRAZY today because I made 3 stupid mistakes and asked silly questions without thinking.He seriously hasn't scolded me THIS much before.I felt really bad and after the lesson was over I shook his hand with my head faced down.

Ironically,he still said 'Good Job' at the end of it all.

I really feel close to Blade Club somehow,the coaches really care for you and mind your performance.Like my coach.He's scary on one on one trainings,but yet you know he still cares for you and your performance.Not just my coach,but whoever who has trained me from blade club.

And because I feel so bad about today I have decided to have this thing called the 'Pokey Mat'.

The point of this 'Pokey Mat' is to work on good,nice,firm hits.I'm making the 'Pokey Mat' out of my brother's old mattress,lean it on the wall and do whatever I need to do with it.Lounge at it,poke it,train good hits with it,aiming,yeah things like that.

I don't know how to train good distancing by myself though.From today's performance I think I need to work on my distancing.

This is crazy.Need to work on my studies and fencing.Hard to balance,but I'll do it somehow.

God's in charge,amen?(:

Anyway,Sports Day today,was pretty fine.

God bless!
I'll show Science and Math what I'm made of.

Hello people!

A fencing hello Panda.Not in full suit though,such a pity.Heh heh.

Anyway,today was good and bad.Good because I got through school,and bad because I fell down a had a few bits of skin come off my knee,and it hurts both the bone and the skin,therefore I couldn't train.MAN.

I'll make that up on Thursday at one on one.

I want to sleep so bad.HAHA.

God bless!
Hello people!

I love my dear Hi Ho.

I don't know how my fist appeared there.Haha.

Hannah didn't like the first one,so we decided to take another shot of which we knew we would look unglam anyway(:

The new J.W building at Gek Poh is super awesome!Its so nice and pretty.

But of course,the effort put in in setting up the place technically,was really tiring.We the sound,video and worship team spent days working on the things.Although I spent less time than most of them due to school.Nonetheless Saturday from morning till late night was entirely spent on setting up the place for it to look good today.

I woke up at 6.30 am today and reached J.W at 7.43 am and did sound check.Sound there is so good(:

Really thank God for providing,really.Shall upload the pictures someday.

God bless!
Hello people!

I don't like taking the bus when I have CCA because the chances of me hurting someone or embarrassing myself are high.Heh.

Nonetheless,God's been good.Did fairly well in training at some of my results today(:

Okay,I need to draw a chili now.Sounds stupid,but when I have to draw a chili for art class I REALLY HAVE TO DRAW a chili.Haha xD

God bless!
Hello people!

Today was fun!But nonetheless tiring at the same time.

School up first,and my mom woke me up today at around 4.07am thinking it was 7.00 am.Was super funny lol.The most fantastic thing was,I slept at 7pm the day before.I have no idea why I was THAT tired.Heh.

Tomorrow's Wednesday!Wednesdays are super awesome since I finally get dismissed on time without needing to stay back for anything.I stay back almost every single day,be it training or extra classes.I count ETC on Fridays too.And ETC is almost always boring.

God has still been really good in his ways,helping me through the day and keeping me awake.Got pretty fine grades for my art file too,and POA!!(: I told you I could do it teacher.

Training later on and Christine dislocated her knee.I was super worried!!The doctors fixed it in the end though.Glad to hear that.Other than that,training was fine,but my legs burn for bouncing about too much.Haha.

God bless!
Hello people!

It has been a blessed week and needless to say,a blessed weekend as well.God has truly been doing wonders in his own ways.Even when I'm dead tired and feeling sian,he's there to make the corners of my lips curl up again.

It's really wonderful knowing the Lord.The best thing that's ever happened really.What will I be without him?Where will I be without his love and grace?

So so,yesterday was the huge packing of CCK to move to Gek Poh at JW.Was fun and I really spent a lot of time coiling the wires and pulling out all the duck tape that secured the LONG LONG LONG wires.I had no idea that there were so many wires hidden around CCK.Haha.

Moving was tough,having to move about all the avioms,removing em from their stands,and lifting all the instruments to room 7.But the satisfaction was there when it ended I guess.

The cleared seats!

Most of the wires in CCK could fit in this box.

I've never seen the stage THIS empty.

I've never seen the sound board off anywhere but its place before either.

Found lots and lots of little rubbish too.Heh.

Sound system kept nicely and labeled.

We found a 2007 bulletin hiding under the sound board xD

Differentiating wants and not so wanted.

The kids amused themselves while the not-so-kids and non-kids packed of course.

Tired in the end?You bet.

Can't wait for this Saturday to go arranging in JW for the very first time!:DHaha

God bless!