Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?

.Nice to see you here.
.Gin Ming/Ren Ming,whichever is easier for you.
.29th December 1994.
.Epee fencer
.Loves God.
.Art.
And collects notebooks.

hello world!

What I must drill into my head today from training:

I MUST LEARN HOW ON EARTH TO PROPERLY ADJUST MY FENCING DISTANCE FROM THE OPPONENT.

Yeah.Most important take away from one on one training today.

I did a lot better in one on one today compared to the last time,coach said I did good(: I want a pair of dumb bells to train my muscles so I can have stronger locks and parries in fencing.

Yesterday was the encounter,and I had absolutely no idea that I couldn't simply step in because there were so many that did that in the past.I was so sian when I was told to leave the encounter,because I really made the effort to come down to accompany Sarah and Charis,all the way from Farrer road to Yishun and only to find that the door was locked,sat at the HDB block opposite,read the newspaper and at the same time stared at the door till it opened(which took almost 1 hour or more by the way),then to find out that I wasn't allowed in the encounter.You know that sian feeling right.

But I don't like going for something and leaving it without proper time spent.You know,at least an hour or two.Three or four would be even better.

So the only one I had to spend time with yesterday was lil Vanessa of 7 years old,Sis Doreen's daughter.I decided to spend my time with her because she's by right even more sian than I,having to play all alone because her Mom's the YC and has to stay in the encounter.So I entertained her by doing all the children stuff with her. You know,like drawing,playing ball,doing origami,playing pretend,looking at little games such as the little pet shop.

'Let's do rainbows!' was something Vanessa excitedly told me yesterday.

And I really admire the child's imagination.She didn't restrict me to plainly coloring.She wanted me to do shapes in em.

Then she taught me how to make envelopes(her style) for putting the rainbow pictures in.

Then we did some patterns on another piece of colored paper and stuck them on the envelopes.

She addressed her envelope to her parents(which was really sweet btw) and I addressed my envelope to her.

And I read her little books.Made me feel like a kid again xD

Then she went to disturb Anthony.HAHAHAHAHA.

Then Sis Doreen thanked me for playing with Vanessa.'Say thank you to Jie Jie!'.

No,thank YOU.

It was joyful having to play with Vanessa.She called me 'Jie Jie!'.It let me have a taste of what its like to be an older sister.She was like, 'Jie Jie,can you help me with this?'.No one has ever called me like that.Only me calling the others xD

Other than that,it did help me see through the eyes of a small child again.The child's excitement over simplicity,over simple games of pretend,were things I enjoyed when I was that age.

Over much thinking I love children because of their bright innocence and their cheerful excitement over the simplest of things.Not like teens and adults who ask for so much,PSPs,new clothes,latest phones,all that high tech nonsense.No teen or adult really ever gets excited over scattered saga seeds,a lollipop or a teddy bear anymore.

A lot of teens now adays are excited about all the wrong things...tattoos,'hot' superstars,being emo,clubbing,BGR,all that rata-tata nonsense.Where did the child-like joy and excitement go?Some teens even go stressed and crazy over workloads.No fun,no joy.Where did that child side of you go?

Vanessa reminded me how it was like being a child again.

I remember when I got excited over my sister bringing me out to have KFC or Mcdonalds as a child.

I remember the joy of dashing from the playground to play under the block with my friends when it rained.

I remember the joy of picking up loads of saga seeds scattered on a pavement after it rained with my sister and keeping em in a small pink ceramic box in the shape of a house.

I remember the excitement of getting candy floss,candy or a new toy in pasar malams with my grandma.

I remember the happiness of receiving a red/white necklace from my grandma.

I remember the joy drawing by my parent's bed side and then joyfully show them what I've drawn,and they'd praise me.

I remember the excitement of my parents telling me that they're bringing me to go East Coast Park to cycle.

I remember how happy I was whenever my parents brought me to Holland V to have half boiled eggs(because I loved them)in the fresh mornings.

I remember how I played pretend all by myself and played until I fell asleep.

I remember how I loved it when I was allowed to get ice lollies from the petrol station.

I remember how I could create picnic scenes with towels,small tables and little pieces of toy food and I'd play pretend by myself,enjoying myself so much that I forget I'm still in the house.

I remember how I played doctor(which was my ambition as a kid) with a tiny toy first aid kit set and pretend to be really good at it.

I remember how I loved it to play catching with my friends,knowing the fun of having to run away from the catcher and to run fast when you are the catcher.

How I enjoyed the simplicity of life and simple things.

I thought I forgot how it was like to be a child again.Suddenly,it all came back.

God bless!(: