Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?

.Nice to see you here.
.Gin Ming/Ren Ming,whichever is easier for you.
.29th December 1994.
.Epee fencer
.Loves God.
.Art.
And collects notebooks.

Sit down with me on the swings at the playground we played in as kids,and tell me how you are.

Because if nobody else would listen to you,I would.
I've always had my friend's feelings and conditions at heart.So,I'm very very affected when something goes wrong for them,and I just feel the need to be there for them.Ever so badly.I want to be there,to tell them I love them,to give them a big hug and assure them that things will turn out right.I don't want to be there to sympathize.I want to empathize,I want to let them know that even when the world comes crashing,I'll still be there to love them,to get their back,to let them know that Jesus loves them.

And my dearest 2 friends are feeling so recently.People so dear,so precious,so wonderful,and I almost broke when I knew what they're going through,and the confusion and sadness in their hearts.Somehow I felt it myself,and I wanted to run to where they are and just love them.To really strengthen them and let them know,everything's going to be alright.

I love you two so much my friends,and I'll always be there for you,no matter what life brings.You'll overcome.You definitely will.

God bless!
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I slept for looooooong just now,at least 3 hours I suppose.Very satisfactory(:

School was interesting today,we had first aid training.And we did bandaging as well as CPR that was really fun,even though I had very negative impressions of having first aid trainings at first.We bandaged AJ into a half mummy,with bandages on the head,neck and on both arms.

Then we had CPR which we had to do mouth to mouth and the process of helping the 'blood circulation' with a manikin.The manikin was ugly and we could peel off his face,it was plasticy and rubbery.Heh.

And the next part of school we did almost nothing at all.Ahaha.

Yesterday we had training,and strangely enough I still had my stamina!Henry made us run in a 4 pointer star shape.And we did blade work,with parry,disengage,and forward attacks.I think I improved.

Then suddenly Juliana came over to make an announcement,asking for around 2 sec 3s to attend a referee training course in august and pass its test.When she asked who the Epee team wanted to send,the whole of them chanted 'GIN MINGGGG....'and then Ellen wanted to go too.Haha,this is going to be interesting,my last experience with referee-ing wasn't as pleasant because there were at least 5 hiccups.Whoops.

Training tomorrow!Then comes Friday,Saturday with the Hot Dog Holocaust and alas,the holidays(:

God bless!
Ren Ming is happy she met her friends(:

Simple,but yes,what a blessing.

God bless!

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I had a really good day today.Although yes the exam results were pretty much depressing,but the outing with Sarah,Charis,Daniel,Timothy Liew,Anthony and BJ was really great!We watched Night At The Museum.

In the whole row of the 7 of us I definitely think that Sarah,Timothy and I laughed the MOST.Likely that I laughed the loudest.Haha,when the movie ended I had a very strong feeling that someone was going turn to me and scold me for being so loud.But no one did.Phew.

Dinner next,and we imitated the movie like mad.Other movies too,like America's Suitehearts and did the 'I'll kill you!' in Chipmunk.Was hilarious.And we went to the arcade for a little crazy time of Air Hockey,Guitar Hero and Para Para.And it has concluded that I cannot do Para Para.Heh xD

Walked with Ymmit Star to the MRT station,and then I went my way to take the bus home.

What a great waft day.Really thank God for blessing it so much(:

God bless!

And I realized.
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I think today I felt like I was the happiest person alive.Seriously.

Last night I asked God to bless my day today.And it was jammed packed with blessings.Though yes,there were hiccups here and there,but over all it was really good.

First,I was on time for duty.That's good,because I nearly can never wake up proper and on time for duties,plus I slept at 12am plus the night before.Naturally I have a feel good feeling when I'm on time.

And service in the morning went pretty fine I guess.So was lunch,doodling on my sketchbook,talking and laughing with Hannah and Shamah.And we laughed about the rude counseling GNS lady again.Right,I should give it a rest.Haha.

And sound in the evening service was BRILLIANT.The atmosphere was really going,and I nearly drowned in the clapping of the congregation and I could almost feel the joy in their hearts that loved and worshiped Christ.

A surprise awaited.MY TWIN BROTHER,YMMIT STAR APPEARED.He definitely wasn't supposed to appear since his quarantine was up till the 31st of May.Him being my other best friend of course it was a pleasant surprise to see him(:

And at dinner,Sarah & Charis Lim and I discussed some silly things we could do during the movie-dinner outing tomorrow.We're watching Night At The Museum.YAY!We laughed.Loads.

I couldn't have thanked God enough,when I reflected(: Thank you Jesus.

God bless!
RIGHT,HUANG REN MING,TELL ME EXACTLY WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU AFRAID OF!?!?

You know,I just had a bit of a revelation.

I've actually been a scaredy cat all along.Even when I was young,I was terrified of almost everything about people...strangers,their comments about me,their teasing,their jokes,their touch,almost everything about them terrified me and I'd always be scrambling into my parent's arms,horrified.I hated being around people.

Even now.Although I definitely don't seem like it too much,that child of myself still hides somewhere in me and is secretly horrified by many things.Its true.I'm extremely scared and afraid of hurting people,the dark,people's opinions about me,that I've somehow made a bad impression and have irritated and annoyed them,and very scared that I've been living out traits that aren't good,like bossiness,the too-cool-for-you attitude,even when I truly don't want to do it,but it leaks out secretly.

That horror of a child and that timidity that's afraid of this world.The timidity that keeps the mouth shut and the refusal to speak,that hinders the full potential of power that could have been used to bless.Its that exact horror and fear,too afraid of people's opinions.

And just a few moments ago,I realized.WHY ON EARTH AM I SCARED!?SCARED FOR WHAT!?

I mean,its good to be conscious about your speech that you don't offend others,but,why am I letting that hinder me?Why am I so scared that I would dwell on it and think of 50 billion ways to make it up?I'm afraid if I would hurt the person,or come off as too bossy,whatever.I can ask God to help me change.I've got God by my side,why am I to fear?In 2 Timothy 1:7-For God DID NOT give us a spirit of timidity,BUT A SPIRIT OF POWER,OF LOVE AND OF SELF DISCIPLINE.

God gave me that!There is the power,the love and that self discipline,crying to get out,but the timidity is truly hindering it.AWAY TO TIMIDITY!Now I'm going to let that power,love and self discipline flow out of me.The discipline to control my tongue,the power to impact and bless the nations,and the love that would heal the broken.But of course,I'll need God by my side.With God,what is there to fear?

Pick yourself up Huang Ren Ming,your almighty father is next to you and forever is faithful.The only person you fear is him(a Godly fear) and other than that,HUANG REN MING YOU DO NOT FEAR.WHAT IS THERE THAT CAN DEFEAT YOUR FATHER?DO NOT FEAR.

Amen(:

God bless!
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CUTE RIGHT CUTE RIGHT CUTE RIGHT.


I bought this green bean soup key chain today from Westmall.Rather interesting huh.There was also Tang Yuan and Tim Sum,but I thought this had the most interesting design,and color scheme.Heh

Thanks Iggy and Nicolette for going out today,and helping me to discover cute key chains and PINO!Haha xD And it was nice eating at Coffee Bean and Pasar Malams with you guys(:

Net was POWER!Sharing was good.

I shared some thoughts during net.Since the past week has been so confusing,I was trying to find myself for once,I felt so buried under condemnation for some reason.I mean,I'm supposed to be a Net Leader by the end of this year.And through this week,it hasn't been a week where I've glorified God through my life the most.Because of this,its been hectic,and there has been some how a limitation to what I talk to God about.Somehow,I couldn't get to God.I just couldn't.There was this huge guilt that covered me from actually going to God,this condemnation that I was a weirdo that no one loved,that I have been terrible,and I kept feeling that I have somehow hurt and angered my peers.Through this my esteem kept falling,and all I asked was,why? Why God?Why is it that I'm like this,why is it that I'm so tactless and never do things that will please and that will be of blessing to others?All the week I have blamed myself and have felt guilty and a hypocrite,that I'm supposed to be a good model for Christ and live a life that glorifies him,but yet,I have failed God time and time again,and all I felt was this undeserving feeling that I didn't deserve to be God's child.How could I,this pathetic useless miserable human being be of any worth to God? God that is so mighty and so brilliant,and I feel like bacteria.Like something so tiny and worthless,and only causes trouble to everyone.The pain and the condemnation I felt through this week.

And only did I have a break through at net.God gave me thoughts,and it felt as if it was his thoughts of me that he puts in.He gave me this vision of a little child-maybe of 5 years-being annoyed and confused,so frantic and so worried,as if something she had dreamed and expected so much for had let her down,and shes so upset and confused.And her father...a big and warm figure,gave her this beautiful,warm fatherly smile,and picked her up and embraced her in his arms.He hugged her and gave out a little laugh,gave her a fatherly kiss.'My daughter,I love you,why are you thinking so much?Your father is here with you.With you,I am well pleased.'

I was asking God why.And God seemed to have asked back 'Ren Ming,why? Why are you talking to yourself and allowing these words not of me to fill your mind?Condemnation never came from me.I never condemned you.I have loved you enough to die the most painful death for you.I love and accept you the way you are,you don't need to change yourself for me.You are my master piece,and I am proud of you.'

Its back to those words Bro Jonathan Yeoh said again.Those words that he spoke to me and Rachel during the altar call in the past : Your Father says to you 'I am proud of you,my daughters.'

Me?A low life bacteria?God's proud of me?Its too good to believe,but its as true as ever.And even as we sang and worshiped during net the song that went I'm in love you,and you're in love with me,I wanna dance with you,won't you draw near to me and my heart melted.He's madly in love with me.To him,there's nothing like seeing me smile,seeing me happy and joyful,and seeing me love him back.That love,the extent he went to,to the deaths,that he would continue to see our smiles and love us for the all of eternity with him in the Kingdom of God.

That gave me such a tremendous break through.God,thank you(:

What a wonderful God I serve indeed.

God bless!
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I have runny nose today....as usual.So I decided that for the rest of the day,I shall do simple leisure,and if possible,on my bed.So now the laptop's on the bed and I'm watching Edward Scissorhands.I'm into Johnny Depp movies recently.Yesterday I just watched 'Benny and Joon'.Quite interesting.Now I'm just waiting for the Edward Scissorhands movie to finish loading.Haha xD

Edward Scissorhands beats Edward Cullen hands down you tweens.Hahaha xD

God bless!

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Yay this is one of the most artistic and nice focus shots I EVER did on my phone.Taken last Sunday when I was wayyyyy too tired and bored in church while waiting for NLT to start.

Anyway,I had a really great and thrilling time yesterday,because first,I watched 17 again with all the 3n7 art girls (Krystle,Cheng Siew,Nicolette,Pamela and Amanda Wee)at Plaza Singapura.Was hilarious,we watched,ate,and played at the arcade.The show 17 again was pretty alright I guess,Zac Efron looks soooo much better,than compared to the lovey dovey ness he was in High School Musical.I guess in 17 again he acted as someone more mature too.Makes this the best Zac Efron movie so far.I give it about a 3 out of 5 stars.

Then during 17 again Jadon msged me and asked if I wanted to watch Star Trek along with Charissa,Joash and Gabriel.And I agreed because I did want to watch the movie once more.And I was late for the movie by 30 minutes.HAHAHA whoops.But it was worth it to watch again because I really do like the movie.

And after that we ate at EAT in Rail Mall.A good time spent.And there the day ended off.Very blessed indeed.

I'm hungry now.Haha.

God bless!
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Happy 400th post(:

I was just giving it a simple thought,but being in a girls school,you are exposed to....yes,girls.More often than not,its a nice sight to see that girls are toughening up to fend for themselves,instead of being like the past of which,they all stay at home and are victims of bully.

No wonder there's still A BIT of stereotype against girls.Soft and gentle like a girl. Nice and sweet like a girl.Nonsense.Oh no I think I'm becoming a feminist.WHAHAHAHAHAHA.

But I guess there is a little bit of reason why.When I was younger,I was bullied,and honestly,pretty badly.My table was thrown out of class,and I wrote on a hardcover book(I don't know what it was with the teacher,she didn't help me at all).My bag was in the rubbish bin.My storybook was mixed with one whole bucketful of books.An eraser was thrown in my eye.And how it was like to have been spat at on the face.

I knew how it felt,I knew how it was like to have been bullied terribly.And when you've experienced it yourself,its natural that you'd want to protect others from experiencing the same.No,its not that I want the girls to spit back when being spat at,or punch back when being punched,but being strong enough not wallow down immediately and cry.Its the strength to stand up and firm,and reach out for help when needed.The respectable courage and the reliance on God.That's what it should be like.

How I laughed at myself for being as mushy and as soft as cotton wool in the past.But yes,stronger and tougher with God amen?And even as I visited the blog of my previous bully,he seemed a lot weaker and a lot more incapable than I last remembered a few years ago.He needs Christ.

When my younger extended family members get bullied,my natural instinct wants to go trash that little stinker that bullied my family.But on the other hand,the holy spirit does pull me back,and says forgive.Forgive your enemies.Indeed.Its also that strength that comes from Christ to forgive that's admirable.But of course,God gets the glory.And about that bully,pray.C'mon,an A LOT bigger God is by your side.Whadaya scared of? (:

I serve a brilliant God indeed.

God bless!
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So blessed, I can't contain it
So much I gotta give it away
Your Love has taught me to live now
You are more than enough for me.

This was the song that applied to me for the whole of today.Today was nothing but blessed.From when I stepped into school,to the exams,to the toilet painting discussion/excursion,to boarding the MRT with Krystle,to meeting up with Daniel and Sarah to watch Star Trek(which was SUPER AWESOME)to listening to my play list of songs on the way home,it was all blessed.Of which,I can't thank God enough for.

6 of us,Cheng Siew,Krystle,Ignatia,Pamela and Nicolette,had lunch together with Ms Hoe at great world plaza while discussing our CIP.And here's a little blessing I received. Since we ate at Macs,I ordered a double cheeseburger meal.Of which,if up sized I get a Coca Cola Cup.I do like the Coca Cola cups,and when the lady at the counter asked if I wanted to up size so that I could get the cup,I decided to save up for Star Trek and in case I couldn't finish the meal,so I didn't order it up sized.Although I really did want the cup.Haha xD

And guess what happened!While eating and discussing,suddenly a random man walked up to our table and gave us 5 of the Coca Cola cups.Apparently he was with his family and they all ordered their meals up sized and had 5 Coca Cola Cups,and he didn't want them.So we got them instead.I was astounded by it,like I was wanting them a few moments ago,and now I have them without needing to pay for them.How great is my God!

The blessing is simple.But it does reflect God's blessing so much.Amen.

God bless!
Ren Ming needs that hug.

Hello world!

Happy belated mother's day!I fell asleep yesterday before I could even wish all mothers on my blog a happy mother's day,so here you have it,HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL MOTHERS! I bought flowers for my mom can.HAHAHA.

Yesterday at NLT for the seminar session was really good.Thanks Bryan for the really good lesson(:And something he said was something I agreed with.To strive to be a true friend.Don't you all wish you had a friend like that?Some one who would weep with you when you weep,who would be there next to you when you needed it,and share you smiles and laughter.I do want to be that friend to someone.I would be someone's true friend,someone they can confide in,someone that will see them and accompany them through the hardest of times,and rejoice together with them when its through.How nice would it be,if you were like that to someone.

Its often good to be on the giving end than the receiving end.Its nice to receive,but when you give genuinely with good intentions,you receive more,as of how I feel.When you give,and when the person that received is blessed,you will seriously feel blessed yourself.

Recently I feel like giving.And I have a friend I dearly miss.Its a little strange that I miss him(yes,its a him)because I do see him every week.But I've missed him terribly recently,because even as I see him,we smile,say hi,there's a hollow feeling that I'm not his friend,but more of an acquaintance.I miss him.Yes I do.And no,I don't have any designs on him.

I mean after all,being a friend,seeing someone you love and treasure so dearly to your heart,recently having nothing to say to you,and you can't find a chance to properly settle down to have a fun friendly chat.It aches me.I have strong urge to want to talk,but he's always out of the distance.Maybe I should invite him out with a group of friends one day.I miss the simple fun actions I used to do with him.To make silly faces.To laugh and irritate each other in a fun,sisterly,brotherly way. To tell each other fun and silly things about the day we had,and we'd have fun discussing them.I miss them.I miss you,my dear friend.

The interesting thing is,deep inside us we know we love each other dearly as friends.And we don't act like it recently.So,I promise the next time I see him,I'll be the greatest friend that I can be.

See you then,friend(:

God bless!
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Being the normal happy notebook collector that I am,I start off each of my notebooks with a weird cartoon featuring myself and something interestingly weird.

So here are a few.

Definitely more fun than a motorboat.

Inspired by the movie 'Singing in the rain' and Charlie Chaplin.

Inspired by George Sampson and Pet Society.

I like Italy!

This was random.But why not? (:
I like.Haha.

Drawing weird things are part of my leisure too.Simple and weird.With simple and weird and sometimes,impossible concepts.Oh well.

And I was thinking how God sometimes protect people through the bible.Indeed,the bible has protected us,been our guide,and sometimes really literally protected people.I've heard of cases where people carry pocket bibles at their chest pockets,and they get shot,the pocket bible took in the bullet and they survived.Wow.

So I thought of this one.A little bit childish and silly it may seem,but I was just expressing it my way.

God's word protects!:D

Haha.

God bless(:
Just one more day,then I'll forget.

Hello people!

I enjoy being myself a lot sometimes.But too,improvements can be made yes.Haha xD

Exams have been OKAY so far I guess.I survived my first 5 papers,but the 6th which was the math paper today,successfully fried my brain cells.I got a pretty bad mental block during the last 1/2 hour of the paper and stoned straight through.Not that I didn't want to do anything,but I COULDN'T do anything.Haha.Everyone's expecting a fail.

My brain felt so squashed up afterward.Need to sleep!Then I'll continue with my art prep work.Heh.

Nonetheless,it's OVER! Of which I thank God for still(:Jia You for the upcoming papers people(:

God bless!
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I didn't want to leave evening service today.But I left anyway,I came back to study. But for the past 2 days,I've had the chance to really be in the presence of God during praise and worship session.It was super good.Really.

I like it when people call me 'Ming Ming'(in Tim's case however,with a 'star' at the back).No,not just that I like the name itself,but 'Ming Ming' gives me a very family feeling with the person who calls me that.Before anyone knew I could be called 'Ming Ming',only people from my family or people who loved me as a family called me that(usually some nice jolly old auntie that my mom knew xD).And it has given me a sense of joy in that name since young.To hear people call me that,it somehow gives me a greater sense of friendship,of family,as compared to 'Ren Ming' or 'Gin Ming'.

I only found out this fact yesterday at church.When setting up yesterday at cck and some went 'Ehy MING MING ah,is it okay if.../how are you going.../do you want...'Somehow there was a greater happiness in hearing it.Even today when I was eating lunch and Sam came out of Sunshine and saw me,she didn't go 'hey' or something,she went 'Ming Ming!'.I felt really happy and went 'hey Sam!'.Although I know its a greeting,the addressing of the name 'Ming Ming' itself had already made me smile.

And one more.A friend of mine whom has NEVER called me 'Ming Ming' did:

friend:'Hey Ming Ming!!'

me:'Oh hey...*thought I heard something* uh huh?'

friend:'Ah,just long time never see you liao.'

It felt really REALLLY nice!:D I'm so strange right.Haha xD Praise God indeed,how he has truly blessed me so much.

God bless!
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This morning at about 4am my forceful bone/organ twisting pain hit me again,and the irritating thing is,you have no idea how on earth you can make it feel better.You can't puke,you can't massage yourself,you can't scream,you can't bite hard or squeeze your hand on something,you can't cry,you can't relieve yourself,you don't know what medicine you can take,its just a stabbing twisty pain in you that seems impossible to get rid of.

So,after trying to puke(which failed)I crawled into my parent's room asking for help.I feel so bad,waking them up so early and being so troublesome.The pain went eventually,thank God.Bet he put his hand around me the whole time,protecting me from dying.I really felt like I was going to die this morning though.Never in the history of all the pains that I had that I screamed because of the pain.

Thank God(: I don't want to die just yet,I still have many many things to do for God on this earth!

I am now stuck on what exactly to do on my art prep work.Okay not stuck.More of too lazy to think.Haha xD Let's see:

-Hair
-Lips
-Veil
-Heart
-Hands
-Chains
-Fan

Okay now I can think.I want to try finishing abit of each by today,so that the rest of the days can truly be spent studying on my other subjects.

Since 1pm in the afternoon till now,was spent doing work and doing rendering.Tiresome,but it'll all be over in 2 weeks.Of which I really thank God for.

I'm so glad that God is faithful.Even through this really stressful period,having fever almost just before the exams begin,having a long piece of prep work to do for art,I trust that he will see me through somehow someway.The God that I believe in is huge,perfect and worthy of all praise,amen?(:

God bless!