Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?

.Nice to see you here.
.Gin Ming/Ren Ming,whichever is easier for you.
.29th December 1994.
.Epee fencer
.Loves God.
.Art.
And collects notebooks.

Hello world!

CUTE RIGHT CUTE RIGHT CUTE RIGHT.


I bought this green bean soup key chain today from Westmall.Rather interesting huh.There was also Tang Yuan and Tim Sum,but I thought this had the most interesting design,and color scheme.Heh

Thanks Iggy and Nicolette for going out today,and helping me to discover cute key chains and PINO!Haha xD And it was nice eating at Coffee Bean and Pasar Malams with you guys(:

Net was POWER!Sharing was good.

I shared some thoughts during net.Since the past week has been so confusing,I was trying to find myself for once,I felt so buried under condemnation for some reason.I mean,I'm supposed to be a Net Leader by the end of this year.And through this week,it hasn't been a week where I've glorified God through my life the most.Because of this,its been hectic,and there has been some how a limitation to what I talk to God about.Somehow,I couldn't get to God.I just couldn't.There was this huge guilt that covered me from actually going to God,this condemnation that I was a weirdo that no one loved,that I have been terrible,and I kept feeling that I have somehow hurt and angered my peers.Through this my esteem kept falling,and all I asked was,why? Why God?Why is it that I'm like this,why is it that I'm so tactless and never do things that will please and that will be of blessing to others?All the week I have blamed myself and have felt guilty and a hypocrite,that I'm supposed to be a good model for Christ and live a life that glorifies him,but yet,I have failed God time and time again,and all I felt was this undeserving feeling that I didn't deserve to be God's child.How could I,this pathetic useless miserable human being be of any worth to God? God that is so mighty and so brilliant,and I feel like bacteria.Like something so tiny and worthless,and only causes trouble to everyone.The pain and the condemnation I felt through this week.

And only did I have a break through at net.God gave me thoughts,and it felt as if it was his thoughts of me that he puts in.He gave me this vision of a little child-maybe of 5 years-being annoyed and confused,so frantic and so worried,as if something she had dreamed and expected so much for had let her down,and shes so upset and confused.And her father...a big and warm figure,gave her this beautiful,warm fatherly smile,and picked her up and embraced her in his arms.He hugged her and gave out a little laugh,gave her a fatherly kiss.'My daughter,I love you,why are you thinking so much?Your father is here with you.With you,I am well pleased.'

I was asking God why.And God seemed to have asked back 'Ren Ming,why? Why are you talking to yourself and allowing these words not of me to fill your mind?Condemnation never came from me.I never condemned you.I have loved you enough to die the most painful death for you.I love and accept you the way you are,you don't need to change yourself for me.You are my master piece,and I am proud of you.'

Its back to those words Bro Jonathan Yeoh said again.Those words that he spoke to me and Rachel during the altar call in the past : Your Father says to you 'I am proud of you,my daughters.'

Me?A low life bacteria?God's proud of me?Its too good to believe,but its as true as ever.And even as we sang and worshiped during net the song that went I'm in love you,and you're in love with me,I wanna dance with you,won't you draw near to me and my heart melted.He's madly in love with me.To him,there's nothing like seeing me smile,seeing me happy and joyful,and seeing me love him back.That love,the extent he went to,to the deaths,that he would continue to see our smiles and love us for the all of eternity with him in the Kingdom of God.

That gave me such a tremendous break through.God,thank you(:

What a wonderful God I serve indeed.

God bless!