Ming.
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Saturday, May 23, 2009 / 11:03 PM
Whaddaya afraid of ,ya fraidy kat.
RIGHT,HUANG REN MING,TELL ME EXACTLY WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU AFRAID OF!?!?
You know,I just had a bit of a revelation.
I've actually been a scaredy cat all along.Even when I was young,I was terrified of almost everything about people...strangers,their comments about me,their teasing,their jokes,their touch,almost everything about them terrified me and I'd always be scrambling into my parent's arms,horrified.I hated being around people.
Even now.Although I definitely don't seem like it too much,that child of myself still hides somewhere in me and is secretly horrified by many things.Its true.I'm extremely scared and afraid of hurting people,the dark,people's opinions about me,that I've somehow made a bad impression and have irritated and annoyed them,and very scared that I've been living out traits that aren't good,like bossiness,the too-cool-for-you attitude,even when I truly don't want to do it,but it leaks out secretly.
That horror of a child and that timidity that's afraid of this world.The timidity that keeps the mouth shut and the refusal to speak,that hinders the full potential of power that could have been used to bless.Its that exact horror and fear,too afraid of people's opinions.
And just a few moments ago,I realized.WHY ON EARTH AM I SCARED!?SCARED FOR WHAT!?
I mean,its good to be conscious about your speech that you don't offend others,but,why am I letting that hinder me?Why am I so scared that I would dwell on it and think of 50 billion ways to make it up?I'm afraid if I would hurt the person,or come off as too bossy,whatever.I can ask God to help me change.I've got God by my side,why am I to fear?In 2 Timothy 1:7-For God DID NOT give us a spirit of timidity,BUT A SPIRIT OF POWER,OF LOVE AND OF SELF DISCIPLINE.
God gave me that!There is the power,the love and that self discipline,crying to get out,but the timidity is truly hindering it.AWAY TO TIMIDITY!Now I'm going to let that power,love and self discipline flow out of me.The discipline to control my tongue,the power to impact and bless the nations,and the love that would heal the broken.But of course,I'll need God by my side.With God,what is there to fear?
Pick yourself up Huang Ren Ming,your almighty father is next to you and forever is faithful.The only person you fear is him(a Godly fear) and other than that,HUANG REN MING YOU DO NOT FEAR.WHAT IS THERE THAT CAN DEFEAT YOUR FATHER?DO NOT FEAR.
Amen(:
God bless!