Ming.
Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?
Saturday, July 11, 2009 / 11:17 PM
Seriously.
SERIOUSLY.
I don't even know why I'm dedicating one post to scream at you,but really.I'm so tired of you ignoring me.I'm so sick of having to not talk to you,of having to pretend that its okay that I'm not talking to you and you aren't talking to me,but I'm fed up.
Don't get me wrong,not that I have any designs or whatever.Its just that I'm your 'Best Friend'.Yeah,best friends that ignore each other.Very good.I tried to talk to you.I tried to be nice and I tried to be a best friend.And you never reply me back.You'd probably won't see me,and you usually tell me that you didn't hear me either.And if I'm talking to you with someone else,you'd reply that someone all the way,not me.
Even if you're trying to play coy,I have to admit you're getting on my nerves.You'll see me,but when I try to say hi,its as if you're wondering if I'm really saying hi to you.In all this time I've known you this is the first time I've wanted to just really shake you and slap you.Its like I don't exist and all.
Although I understand its awkward for you and even suspicious if you talk to me but that isn't a good excuse.I know how its like for you.But I can't understand why that mouth of yours shuts ever so tightly when I talk to you,or why you can't keep your focus on me for more than 5 seconds.I just wanted to say hi and maybe a sentence or so.But you never ever ever listen.EVER.I'd say something,and you'd go off with some other guy friend of yours.And if you think that's nice,its not.
And you said that I'm your best friend.And you always wanted to know why when I looked sad.And you'd ask how I was.RUBBISH.That's all total rubbish now.To think I trusted you and to think I thought you cared.I'm not anyone to you actually am I.
And I'm only so angry and pissed off its still because I still love you as my brother/friend.YOU ARRGH.Why do you disappoint me so?
God bless!