Ming.
Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?
Sunday, August 16, 2009 / 10:13 PM
When I really want to take a break.
Greetings world.
This has by far been one of the most exhausting and life draining weekends.
Yesterday,I coughed out blood during dinner.Today,I broke down during morning service and this evening I was emotionally hurt and got a headache.
My brother didn't help with his sarcasm and I slapped him right across the cheek(he didn't mind though).And when I tried asking my mother for a break,she only scolded me saying that whatever I'm going through now is entirely my fault.
Not that I really want to say this but,I'm coughing blood already.At times like this,I want God to just take me home.
But I know I can't,I still have much to accomplish in life for him,and I can't give up.
Sometimes,I really feel that to get the motherly comfort and support,I might actually need get a fever high enough to scorch my brains out or break all the bones in my body.Everytime I fall sick,my mom would always blame it on me,saying that I sleep too late,etc.When actually I need that moral support from her,me so desperately wanting to know that she cares,although its definitely not showing.
When I half sprained my ankle and couldn't walk down the stairs properly,I asked if I could see the doctor,and she replied:
'See doctor no need money ah.'
And that broke me,it felt as if that money was worth more than my health.And its been going over and over again.
God,I need you so so much now.
I thank God that he has sent angels like Hannah and Daniel who are always there for me,who would love me as a friend even when all else fails.I thank you two for that.I really appreciate that you guys still care for me,even with your personal trouble in life.
God,I trust you.Please.Please help me.
God bless!