Ming.
Hello.
You have someone who loves you.
Aren't you thankful?
Tuesday, September 8, 2009 / 12:25 AM
If in secret.
Hello world!
I've just been haunted by a disturbing thought.
The thought of which if I've been actually hurting people without knowing.And the thought of which if I have been changing for the worse,without knowing it.
I don't know,but I'm worried.Sometimes,things just slip out.Things that aren't actually what they mean.But they come out,and that they may actually irritate,hurt and anger people.
Now you have to admit that that's a a pretty disturbing thought.
I feel that maybe I've been this horrid,hurting idiot that says the wrong things all the time.Maybe I judge myself too much.
But maybe its true.
Man I have to watch what I'm doing.
Its difficult to be myself,often I feel like I contradict.I'm as violent and as logical as a guy can get,but yet I can love with compassion for my family and friends.I can be intelligent,I can be extremely stupid.
And I'm always having the thought that people all think with a way,and in my actions,some may annoy people,some may irritate them,some may offend them,depending on how they think.When people all think differently,everyone has such thoughts.
Maybe,I've not been a nice person after all.
And its horrible.I love people,I do care.But sometimes,it can't show as well.And instead,maybe the opposite comes out.
God help me.